fight for the future

soon, 3 mnths working life already past, however still got another 3 months to go..now at the middle already. just asking my self. what you really get during this 3 months? actually i tell you honestly. this 3 months i work like very hell. last time i work like to take easy way. to make my life to be easy. this time, after i join this company i learned from the senior construction. life is no short cut. everything must learn from foundation. no easy way for me. many trainees and staff said me is the one very hardwing staff in the site, is it true? actually i no wan to prove my self to be hardworking. i just hope i able learn from my senior, so i need do a lot of homework. to improve my self. i never learn so detail thing during my study. actually if i touch this site early, i think my result will get more better. haha. trainees like to take easy way. they like to earn fast mney with less work. but i no blame them coz at least they get their vision. at least they will follow their vision to performe better. me too, i see my vision. i wan to be perform better. i really dun know i live like hell stil i wan to stay at there? but smetime i see my building grow day by day i felt very satisfaction. this is i build one. pround for it. the first project i able to complite it by my self..haha. although wat the life inside i still wan to stay. i believe all the harsh word everything can make me perform better. coz of work maybe i sacrified a lot. i just hope i able to learn it. cz hard to get the person teach u like this. i appreciate his effort. people use 5 years, maybe i use 3 years..hehe..i wan to prove to all, i can do it. future i no grarantee..i just know this year i get my vision. fresh graduate must fight with many many fresh graduate. if cannot perform, is totally out. so just try my best to learn. everything i also wan to learn. jes go on and complete my project..

transformation life~~

hehe, seem i long time dint update my blog dy..few months already..sometime felt quite lazy la..wan to write..dun know write wat rite, dun know today sudenly feel wan to update. suddenly i feel i wan do a lot of things. but dun know how to start to do..hehe. this year 2009. for me study life already ended. this year started to my career life. no more like last time can relax s much. since i join in this company i felt very stress. coz a lot of things wan to learn but now getting good and good, started to know dy and can build house with my own knowledge. i feel exitec. coz this is my first time. after i dead. this building i built still there..hehe. i feel nice, coz i can see the building grown and grow every day, jes like the baby...haha. although ppl said my working so samfu coz 1 week work 6 days. ya..early i really feel suffer, but now i getting to enjoy to my work. cam...i know this company can give future to me. i hope i choose will get rite. my result bad nevermind. i jes know if i put effort to my weak area. i think i able to overcome it. this year i wan to concentrate my my career. and i dream car for this year also. i chasing material. but i started far from the relationship. this is me and my mother relationship. coz i kenot go bek frequently. i only can bek one year one time. today is mother's day. i hope she will know i get a good job, she also happy. but wat she care i can go bek or not. pls give me few years. i wan to prove that my stable position in this company. i hope that this year. God able to bless me although i miss a lot of activities. although i busy, however my heart never get cold. i will praise him also and make my life turn better and betters...

CNY 2009

finally chinese new year is coming. so fast har, another year gone..this few year staying outside always busy and sometime kenot feel that the new year mood. this year is my big transform year. coz finally i completed my study at utar. last time freshie, now not fresh liao...hehe..life at utar very busy and challenging. now go out to work also same situation. but the life different from previous. for this year coz of the resseision..ppl hard to get the good job..some also kena fire and cut workers. in this momnet i can find the good work and good pay actually wanna give thanks to God dy. ppl think, wah ur son get the good job and go to big company ya and get high pay..but who know actually inside we need to work like "kuli". repeat and repeat. ppl amaze u coz can get high pay..sometime i feel very question to my self..come out wit this salary..some work from day light to day night. jes wanna my life and my family life be better. ppl always said, work at site..every person very high temper. ya, i admit..coz if u dun high temper, workers wont listen to u..i try many times, i also wanna e nicely to the workers. but , in the end they wont scare u..this is my our temper must rise. finally go bek to hometown lo..but i hope i get getr work soon la...i dun wan my mum get to work outside dy...this also my new year hope la.

December 2008

one more month dint update my blog...should be busy and tired, every time wan to write but at the last i still cannot. my 3 months training going end soon, now still have 3 weeks... after this i finish my degree dy..so happy..this time of training i learned a lot for my field, coz i follow a supervisor those from international company, so every thing he treat me very strict...i also makes a lot of bangladesh and indo friends at there. this moment finish soon but maybe i will continue bek..i still dun know..depend.. still thinking..hehe..issit construction suitable for me? lol already finish the course still got the doubt for here. hope tat 2009 bring me to good future....thanks...

Busy makes ppl lost direction

1 month gone, i still under training. when started the training, inside felt very exited coz can work. but when working. jes realised that. work at site, i have sacrified a lot of things. i dun wan. coz money not that important to me. now work work work. inside my heart already like nothing. felt my self like a robot. never stop. busy also makes ppl easy to lost their direction. sometime i felt that i also wat i wan actually. jes work and work. besides work. nothing let me do it. friends, relationship will slide down if i keep working with timeless. last time tot that work at side very flexible. but some my engineer they sometime work until midnite jes go. sacrified their family to finish the work. i tired dy. but still wanna go through. never give up. where my soul??

FYP

i so so happy while i see to my fyp result...i kenot believe that i can get such result for my fyp. have to thanks God, the rest to my friends for helping me for the fyp. hope that i wont kena presentation for my fyp..haha..actually my fyp also help me a lot, it help me rise up my cgpa also. although i not the perfect one, but i get the cgpa where i already give up..but now i get it. thanks God also.. i really kenot believe that my fyp can get A. i jes hope that i can pass my fyp is enuff for me. but now. i feel like very very happy. coz i sacrified a lot of time to do. actually if u use the heart go to do it. the result come out will be very nice. i dun know how to express my feeling.haha. anyways, thanks God and my friends again to help me to complete the FYP.. Thanks a lot.^^

internship assessment

hehe, long time i dint touch my blog, coz my working, i also no such time to write...now see got some time, then let me write something here la. today my site manager told me about my senior, his fail to get interview for the brunsfield company. we very shocked, coz my senior he really very efficiency ppl, and know every thing. he also very hardworking and sometime he able ot until 2am baru balik. sometime we also kenot, but he can. so everytime for the interview we look good for him will able continue to work for this company. but in the end he fail. we dun know the reason. until today my manager told me about his problems. oh, actually every month we have to submmit our internship assesment to the hr deparment. this assessment also a trap for us. my senior keep complaining in the assessment. so in the end he fail to get the interview. so my manager jes advice us dun be so honestly. everything jes write in positive way. dont write some negative or any complaning stuff inside the assessment. hehe. so from now, my assessment will made it nicely, he told us now the market very bad, have to appreaciate every chance. dont try to kill our self. brunsfield also the largest firm at town. so i also very confident to this company. if next time i really got change to get interview for this company. it is good. coz i really learn a lot at here, not only the site manager, although the general worker i also learn a lot from them. try to make friend wit them. hehe..gambate...