future way

although this sem look very flexible, however i getting to start thinking my future already. i might no got 3th sem so i jes got 2 sem only. getting graduate soon. latelly start to think after finish my degree where i suppose go to work ? i think tat i should back to my hometown and get the job first. my mum still there i think i need back to her side and take care her dy. day by day. passing like tat. soon, year 2 almost finish it. final year project coming soon. what important know what i want in my future. look very tired. tired. sleep ad sleep, time also no enuff for me to sleep. reality world hard to get a true friend. jes follow my plan b4 now. what is impoertant is finish my degree first. this most important to me and also my father.

lost control

latelly,i will get mad easily, i can also lost my control and wanna scold ppl. i dun know y i get this feeling. feel like very get angry person. stress? no, jes start my study life how come got stress? this feeling already started since i started to evangelism. never leave me. sometime i worship in the half, actually my heart already pain but i could not cry out. heart fight each other. sometime i wish i can cry out. this more better i keep in my heart. but i cannot. can u understand my feeling? sometime wanna to cry but cannot. make my self very painful. now my mind look empty. sometime sit at here wat i wan to do. my friends always said me got problem. what i can tell them? sendiri no siok sendiri? felt very down then said very sad? sometime my friend share they problem i also dun know wanna how to encourage them. actually i feel better than them already. at least i still got ppl to support me. living in victory. need to connected and focus on Jesus, keep trusting in Jesus and also keep persevering in Jesus christ. then ur victory will be Now. overcome it. i think i need find a day and sit in peacfully and talk with God. if not, i jes will continue like this. in the end, i might back to the previous stanic.

big sick coming soon

raining latelly, always need to walk under the raining day. now also become under the weather. big selesema and sakit terongkok. also quite tired. i think need to take more rest and drink more water. get well soon and be a healthy man.

Raining Day

every evening raining, very comfort for me. always think wan to sleep, but cannot always like tat. this weekens passed through like tat. all freshmen back to hometown. cannot get them and dinner with them. i like raining, especially in house. very nice. tomolo have classes. changed to 9am. but still very suffer coz take look period for this class. tutorial begin. this sem i cannot maintain my cgpa already, i must be hard again to improve my cgpa again. perhaps i can do tat. yes alex

Why?

Why? why? why? latelly i feel unsupport ,i very tired. what i should do? evangelism also alone. i feel tat, i get far from my friends. what they do, what they think. sometime yum cha, what they talked no interest for me. y from their eye,alex is a cool person? actually alex jes a simple person. although look cool, however heart still soft. very fan, do a bit wrong thing will get mad very fast...i feel very "mang" ...............

result released

finally,result released. for me enuff already, as long as my loan no got effect by any,i already satisfied. latelly quite tired coz every days 830am class. make me lazy to wake up from my bed. but in the end still need to take the decision to wake up. jes paid my bill, now getting poor. wanna save save use it already b4 the loan coming. today one person went to hostel. heart actually very nervous but finally i can explain all the thing to the freshmen and also know some new guys. very very happy. perhaps i can do more better again next time.

失望

“付出，不一定得到” 在我中学时候，我已经有这样的想法。 或许别人可以接收，或不能，可是给我的话不是每一件事我都可以接收到。尤其像我这个独生子，在家有我说没你说的习惯。 大家或许不了解我，我不喜欢人家答应我的东西没有做到。如果做不到就不要答应我！ 最近的确在我的心理很乱，没什么开心。 因为我有个朋友曾经为他做了很多东西，人家找我帮忙，我的确很乐意的去帮。 也不会和他计较些什么，回家时，本来是越好一起回的，那里知道回前SMS他，他既然不回我。我已经说过，做不到就不要答应我。 那时我真的有点不爽。可是我也吞下去。 最近有和他联络，只是叫他帮我做一点点的东西，他既然多多声，我也不想在找他帮忙了！！ 我的确很失望。