December 2008

one more month dint update my blog...should be busy and tired, every time wan to write but at the last i still cannot. my 3 months training going end soon, now still have 3 weeks... after this i finish my degree dy..so happy..this time of training i learned a lot for my field, coz i follow a supervisor those from international company, so every thing he treat me very strict...i also makes a lot of bangladesh and indo friends at there. this moment finish soon but maybe i will continue bek..i still dun know..depend.. still thinking..hehe..issit construction suitable for me? lol already finish the course still got the doubt for here. hope tat 2009 bring me to good future....thanks...

Busy makes ppl lost direction

1 month gone, i still under training. when started the training, inside felt very exited coz can work. but when working. jes realised that. work at site, i have sacrified a lot of things. i dun wan. coz money not that important to me. now work work work. inside my heart already like nothing. felt my self like a robot. never stop. busy also makes ppl easy to lost their direction. sometime i felt that i also wat i wan actually. jes work and work. besides work. nothing let me do it. friends, relationship will slide down if i keep working with timeless. last time tot that work at side very flexible. but some my engineer they sometime work until midnite jes go. sacrified their family to finish the work. i tired dy. but still wanna go through. never give up. where my soul??

FYP

i so so happy while i see to my fyp result...i kenot believe that i can get such result for my fyp. have to thanks God, the rest to my friends for helping me for the fyp. hope that i wont kena presentation for my fyp..haha..actually my fyp also help me a lot, it help me rise up my cgpa also. although i not the perfect one, but i get the cgpa where i already give up..but now i get it. thanks God also.. i really kenot believe that my fyp can get A. i jes hope that i can pass my fyp is enuff for me. but now. i feel like very very happy. coz i sacrified a lot of time to do. actually if u use the heart go to do it. the result come out will be very nice. i dun know how to express my feeling.haha. anyways, thanks God and my friends again to help me to complete the FYP.. Thanks a lot.^^

internship assessment

hehe, long time i dint touch my blog, coz my working, i also no such time to write...now see got some time, then let me write something here la. today my site manager told me about my senior, his fail to get interview for the brunsfield company. we very shocked, coz my senior he really very efficiency ppl, and know every thing. he also very hardworking and sometime he able ot until 2am baru balik. sometime we also kenot, but he can. so everytime for the interview we look good for him will able continue to work for this company. but in the end he fail. we dun know the reason. until today my manager told me about his problems. oh, actually every month we have to submmit our internship assesment to the hr deparment. this assessment also a trap for us. my senior keep complaining in the assessment. so in the end he fail to get the interview. so my manager jes advice us dun be so honestly. everything jes write in positive way. dont write some negative or any complaning stuff inside the assessment. hehe. so from now, my assessment will made it nicely, he told us now the market very bad, have to appreaciate every chance. dont try to kill our self. brunsfield also the largest firm at town. so i also very confident to this company. if next time i really got change to get interview for this company. it is good. coz i really learn a lot at here, not only the site manager, although the general worker i also learn a lot from them. try to make friend wit them. hehe..gambate...

car car car!!!

since now started to work dy, i also started to save the money for my new car. hope that next year i really can get my own car dy, then i no need always follow ppl time. even raining also i still have my own shelter. latelly always raining. i like felt that sudah biasa....go bek sure rain, the time come very accurate one. but very funny for the kl weather, ampang there raining heavily, but wangsa can be sunny!! only for the short distance...macam macam punya weather pun ada. have to start plan my first thing, new car, new car, new car...it is good if i got my own. i feel that i dun like gantung ppl so much. even my motor pancit or wat. i rela sendiri move my motor from ampang to wangsa. but now became trainee, a lot of thing have to learn from foundation. a lot of specialist in there. i can learn. but i sacrified my friendship. i put my private time to my relationship partner. only tat time i can see her. so i really appreciate the time. even 8:30pm got cell group. b4 this i also take the time wit her. today i felt that very cam dy la, this week site manager assigned me with another site engineer. and i have learn from him. now only one word from the engineer: " stay back", wat i say? No? haha, crazy...in this site very easy to get black list. i dun wan so fast let ppl feel that i jes always think to go bek. must have the initiative in the site. today i stay until 9 something, coz the work havent done. have to help the barger enginner to inspect and still wanna lock the gate. tis time really cam. i think this only the begining for me....this 3 months sure got a lot of activities to me slow slow play. life is like that. even today the mti decoration meeting, i already 2 days absent coz of working! decorate wat? i also kenot do anything. trainee ler. only YES, sir. if u no, means next time ppl wont find u dy. u will lost the opportunity to learn! wat to do. patience, patience, patience. this is wat i can do!!!

end of the year

time passing very fast like rocket. still got 4 months left, wanna celebrate chinese new year. this time wat the different is i graduate. think like wanna take one month holiday to me go lepak and makan. kl life make me feel that life going very fast. during i was in hometown. felt that the time very slow, even driving also slow. now go bek when drive in hometown. like the samseng for the road...in front a bit slow then hone ppl. new semester jes began. but for me already no that opportunity to go bek to the uni. in the future, i no dare t think about this. good life for? this time working get a lot. but also sacrified a lot. luckily came a new trainee to accompany me every day. feel like nothing to write..maybe my life now like not new thing happen. is this good or no good? i also dun know... jes go step by step, may God guide me in the future path.

Brunsfield Army

after joined to the brunsfield, a lot of things we never seen b4, now have do it. site manager teach me a lot. he wan me observe many things. it coz he said that, result no so importance for it. u hold the degree, still a lot of ppl hold the degree. wat the importance is during the interview, u have got ur got knowledge for this circumstance. start from now, i learn from lower. climb up climb down. work under the sun and rain. this is wat we wan to see it. i have to choice. i have to do it. actually i enjoy it. jes the working day a bit long, but still ok coz only work unti 5pm. traffic there very worst. i like saturday coz no much car. finally 2 weeks gone. still have another 12weeks. i can have a long long holiday...hehe..

updating~~~

came bek to kl already one week, but dint update anything at here, always wan to update but in the end still lazy and pass it. now ler working dy lor, as a trainee..although get the salary 1k and working hour from 8am-5pm, however i still wanna come early and go bek late. coz trainee ma..where can so follow the time, have to do some patent to my boss. actually my boss quite serious person. but when he open his mouth, everything is gold..knowlege gains. but now started mix with him dy, started feel that he got some nice place. hope this 3 months i able learn a lot from this site. 3months not enuff for me. especially now my project still in earthwork...so a lot of thing to learn. u will happy when u see the building come out one day by one day. can say that i enjoy. but working days 6 days.. quite busy now, go ek also late dy. sleep tight and prepare for tomolo. trainee sam fu a bit, next time will be better la. take this time to sharp my skill dy. gamate!!

saturday is a good day

finally reach tat day coming...waiting already one week..damn boring and boring also...i hate waiting...should be fast complete it..this time should i say is the last for my..coz this year going to end my degree life at utar..ops when u reach the end, u will think bek the start..i still remember the first time i in the utar orientation..hehe.. now already the old hantu at utar..also going graduate soon. this time my holiday very short, it can say no holiday if i wait my result..i decided i dun want wait dy...everytime i wait..now i wan be confident to bek..hehe...less than one week have to come bek..so lame..actually i go bek also see my parent...haiz..latelly quite hot..i kenot tahan..bath liao still same..erm...nothing to say for it...tomolo last paper neh...hope it i can do la...hehe actually i no that much confident for the last paper..God assist me k

Today new recipi

today suddenly wan to cook, cam dy..i like cook for much..maybe this is my new hobby now. ppl will think me jes playplay only la. but seriously i hope that i can learned all my mom recipies. coz she very keng in cooking, everytime u see me go bek hometown u will see me will grow..haha. the pic shown "wan tan"? simple called wan tan la, but this is called "jiang nan xiao kun kun" i learned from recipi book. i think that take for fry will be better. coz suddenly wan to cook, so kenot not get so much ingredients. so i prepared it with limited ingredient wat i had. finally going to the last paper for exam..also the tuff paper, for me la, coz i much like this subject, and i also kenot find the spot to read..i also dun know wat i reading for. hope that last min i get the spot to read la.. ppl asked me, wah..see u always nothing to read one, still felt tuff? yahor...coz when i reading u all still sleeping ma, how to see me reading ler..lol. today go mcd get a lot of ramadan cupon bek. jes take it la hehe, latelly like always mcd mcd...a bit scare dy...hehe. old man is like tat, the energy power already finish it..when reach the time..my mind already die...see like body without soul dy...haha..this time will going bek hometown to see my mom and friends. then have to come ek b4 hari raya...time is crucial for me... have to rush it.. convo coming soon...i really waiting that day coming!! although my father kenot see it, however i did it, and i dint let my father get dissapointed. coz i finish my degree soon. wat i promised him b4, i will finished it watever how i suffer. thanks God coz i able to finish my degree soon. no easy to finish it...hehe..how many thousand maggi mee i took b4 dy...this called sometime u get something, in the same time u also need to sacrifiy something. we learned from econimic. i get the degree, but i sacrifing my health..hehe..dun learn it from me....

My Recipies!!

haha, yesterday after the exam, then went to celebrate..haha.. then jes simply cook the 3 recipies...still learning rite...but can eat la...haha..number one is the cap choi curry...inside every vege all..haha, meat? no wor coz this capchoi ma..so all are chap coi..ngek ngek ngek.. then the second ler the choi wit soup la..hehe...very weitd rite..still choi again..but nice..the third ler..is tomyam prawn with egg..hehe...actually jes the simple meals..but i jes hope that all will be nice after eat this..haha..finally i finished 2 exam..need to wait until this coming saturday...then have to rush bek to hometown..also tell the utar...good bye!

Unbelieveable..

do u bealieve or not, in this world actually got another person, he/she thinking actually same wit u...even u know wat that person will think and also know the decision that person make. actually in this world, actually got few persons are same one..but they allocate in difference area. it is hard to find it. haha. if let u know this person who actually know wat u thinking, do u scare?or feel very happy coz got a ppl able to understand u..haha.. tomolo will be another battle to go, so tonite still same sleep at 10 then wake up early for tomolo...a lot things to read, but we suspected lecturer will come out the same questions as the pass years paper, even the tips he given also same..so i will aim there..so hope tomolo will come out la, haha...let me can score for this paper..i hope this paper can get A. hope it ya, coz the lecturer mark very cincai...haha. but still be to do more patent let him mark until happy ma. after this neh, have one week break..next saturday jes exam dy
haha..so long rite? i also dun wan dee...but nevermind la, this will be the last for my life haha....then ler go to industrial training for few weeks...then nee..haha, this is my turn to convo dy...every time join ppl convo...now my turn ppl join my convo...wakakakaka...last few days talked to my friend, suddenly he told me our convo might in kampar ler...wah..so far..hope at ampang can liao la...wan go until kampar very sian neh....jes convo at here then ok liao la..hhaa...pray ya...erm...that nothing dy,...jes let me finish the exam tomolo, wakakaka...then let me rehat rehat liao...haha...enjoy, alex!

Final Exam..b4 11hours

always see the movie like 4 something happen..they will put the time below it..like bla bla bla before 4 hours or wat..hehe, now i also wan same wit them and put it..still got 11 hours wan sit inside and exam,,,but later wanna wake up early to my last revision. this paper a bit worry, coz it kenot use own word to write, sure get low mark..so must understand the question first then jes answer...this saturday wan do new recipi..already called bek to my mom, asked her some secret skill..haha..this saturday wanna cook for it..God bless my success la..hehe..wow, so far cook, i alsocan cook somuch dy...every time i learn and learn..actually jes put the heart to cook, sure very nice..haha..latelly ppl also watch tong sam fong bou...watch until all like insane liao..haha...me too...but got exam..still read be normal..hehe.. wow 10pm liao..dun wan talk liao..tomolo see me how to first blood ba!

Destiny~~

tonite, suddenly got a friend called me, she said her car jes broke down. she felt that very desperate and sad, no matter in her career or relationship. she felt that for her life..like very useless. actually this friend we knew since we were form 3. although we never meet b4, however anything she will share to me or me share to her via phone or msn. long time i dint see her online. until this few day jes saw her on9. finally knew that she now training. she same wit me, her father also passed aways same time with my father. but she more suffer than me. she need to take care her mother some more, coz her mother kenot work. for me, my mum still can work. for anything things in the house, my mom still can settle. she different, her monther always wan money from her. she jes earn 800 per month. deduct all the things, she like no much money to eat. so wat i can help her jes help her. suddenly she told me she felt that ppl life like no meaning. then jes give her some counsel also la..since our life same. so, jes give her more support and advice. share about my life here to her also. i think she quite ok now. hehe. hope her able be strong to overcome all the circumstances. anything wan to help jes call me la. few more days my exam will start. i hope that every body able to study smart. life precious. i aprreaciate now i have. life with meaning full how difficult i also faced it dy. now still can at here and writing my blog. although i very tired. but soon, i will see the rainbow after the rain....go ahead!

Money No Enough 2

today dear dear coming bek, so after meet her in kl sentral, then we went to klcc lepak, haha..actually today damn tired coz of the taking convo picture. haiz..taken me few hours for it. finally finished it..haha..then today went to watched money no enuff 2 in klcc, today no much ppl, and we get the student price also for today. the movie very nice and very kamtung also. especially the part ending there. very kamtung..sometime in the reality world it show that how the son treat their parent , is very sad kes. this always remind us must always be nice to our parent. especially they getting old and old. finally today taken the convo pic already felt that i close to graduate, especially i wear the convo shirt. already see that day i convo..haha..is near also.. Lord, let me finish it smoothly..today ate a lot...very full. have to keep keep haha..if not wanna be fei zai dy...still got one week, exam dy...hehe, hope that i can make a good result also la...last time for my student life...hehe... nice..

Darkness

everytime ppl saw into my room and me was inside..they always said, y u dun wan switch off the light? is no good for ur eye u know? maybe for already like like this, i dont like to switch on the light coz feel that eye very pain. the light like very bright..i kenot tahan it..i like dark coz i feel that my feeling is coming that time, plus music and my my performance..i think that time wat song i play out will express from my heart, no matter happy or sad, it is same for me. this wwekk is study week, next week will start my final exam. everyday i read little and little coz my time manage until sui sui dy..will finish it b4 i go for exam. see the pic rite, this is my harmonica, i like to use it to play the music when i in the room alone or in the darkness. imagine that in the darkness, like no hope for ur self, suddenly come out wit the nice music. this is how i express music for my feeling..if u ask me how to play harmonica, i really dun know one, i dint learned it b4..when i hold this, i jes blow wat song i know, coz inside my heart already got the song sheet, then i can blow it out..if u ask me the music theory, hehe, soli i only know the basic, advance i dun know..hehe...yesterday, i joined the secret place, dun know y suddenly pastor said about he see cook...that time i really think about the new recipi..wat i eat from my mother, i wan learn it out, and i also wanna find the simple one..complicated i can make, ut need a lot of cost, so for me this noob person jes find the cheaper than nice one and make..dun know i like the cook dy..jes i dont have a perfect kithchen for me. i think that, i still young ,many things should try and do it..even cooking, next time if my mom or my gf they kenot cook, i still can cook..although i dint have any music cell, but i try my best for another way, that is cook. many people know cook, but they no cook, so this is my time go to learn from them and steal their recipi. actually my mom is the big recipi in front of me, if u see my previous pic then u will know how keng my mom can cook..hehe. sometime feel that if i put in my hoby into my career, i will be more hardworking, i think people also think like tat, actually i really dun like to study..hehe..wanna graduate dy still say this kind of thing..haha..if i can choose...i better do wat i like..think that cook easy rite? wat the cook person willing to see is not the person eat one say his food nice..but he can see all the person finish his food. that y every time the chinese new year reunion dinner so impoertant. every time my mom prepared the food for me, i think this time can can tell my mom no need worry for me dy, i can take care of my self..haha

Merdeka!!

today is the day which end of this month, then next month we going to new month dy, there is september..wao...fast rite, 2009 coming soon, for me ler also finish my lectures dy, now waiting for the my final exam...this week seem a lot of ppl go bek hometown for celeration merdeka..for me ler, i no bek, coz i know that i kenot concentrate in hometown. maybe i no the home sick person. coz everytime i go bek only for my self in the house. so nothing special also, sommore friends also no free. seeing ppl taking convo pic, i also imagine that that day able come faster, haha.so now ler, for the finalyear prepareation we need take a lot of pic for utar keep..haha. so weird.. actually is for outr certificate pic, and whole course pic..still wanna wear formal...sian. everyday still studying, i think still no study also ,haha, look like doing note only and try to understand it. better like tat, then that time i can write by my own words. haha, is it christmas coming soon? yup only few months. soon rite? time always like tat one, finish that thing, then need to prepare another thing. haha. anyway. hope i can be more happy person..i know working life different dy, we wan to use the energy to exchange wit the money..this is how we sacrified for the work..but must enjoy it..hehe..

Coming Bek again

finally, come ek again.. got few happiness should i share ...the first neh, last week i get a call from hometown, the charity assiciation called me go bek to get their money for support money..this time i kenot bek coz the time to rush, but nevermind, they said can wait until me go bek jes get it. praise God and thanks God, number two neh, i still few month i wanna graduate dy..time passing very soon.. still remember the first time came here, apa pun tak tau...but already 3 years dy..hehe..have to start to plan my future way dy... the third thing neh..hehe, see the pic? my dear dear neh...although i kenot promise her i am the better man, i will try to e a good man to protect her, i wish our love can like the God's love, shine to each other. to maintain our relationship.. may God always assist us11 thank you Lord...e a better man! Yes and Amen!

FYP Over......

oh yes, long time no come to update my blog dy..coz og busy for the previous weeks, always do the same thing in my life..sian. finally my finish and submit my fyp...last time i tot that doing fyp was like a hell..this relly, especially last min my printer came out the problem ,i totally blank. ut in the end stillcan submit on time. finally all the thing is finish.. the coming is exam and training dy. utar allocate me in damansara, brunsfield construction company. although far a bit, but jes belive tat God put me there sure got purpose. actually i got a lot wan to write, but dun know suddenly dun know wat i wan to write..hehe.. is ok, at least jes write down waht happen to me also ma
hahaa...

critical

as a student of construction management, we always need to calculate the critical time for the scedule. event if my life now, jes like a critical. assignments, test, and fyp, never ending..keep continue...sian.week 11 now, actually week 12 i need to submit dy. but i havent start also..hehe. somemore i still havent start anthing...very keng..haiz, onl last 3 weeks for me...jes bia lo..next week i will know my training place dy..so kang chiong also..hehe...today jes completed 2 assignments in a day...keng..now eh, wanna crack my head to think for my fyp. later 6am i think wanna go to mcd do my fyp..hehe...now should i take a nap first...hope i really can pass all this thing...strong strong strong...wow, jes 2am nia..sleep? still got a person chatting wit me..jes try my best to help her..hehe

assignment

wow, typing typing typing, i wanna refer the three form to get the clauses. type until wanna to vomit blood, so i decided to get the softcopy from other. my eye damn tired, after looks the screeen...wow, doing wat now? my hair quit long dym plan this saturday go cut my hair..the hair always kena my eye very sakit. listening music and doing assignment, very nice..i stop typing for my assignment dy, coz i very tired and cannot think dy.jes let it like tat. be patience, still got one month like tat, then i will say good bye to my student life..gambate!! gambate...

humble...

i am that kind of person...i not an automatic person, i will wait until no body will do it, then i jes go to do. no singer rite, then i will wait until the last no ppl again,i jes be, no guitarist rite, i will wait until no body be the guitarist i jes go to be.. is it, sometime we need to be more automatic for my self..but i like tat kind..hehe.. actually hard to change it. ummm..latelly i like to cook..dun know y, i started to learn how to cook also...wow, actually food is an important thing to us..it no only can let us fellowship, i also learned that which food will be more healthy, which one no..hehe..i also hope i can use cook to touch people life also..wanna make a meal no so easy..the important part we able to enjoy it and eat with togehther..i think this is wat the cooker thinking... dun think make one meal very simple, jes go market but some fast thing and cook, if u wanna make the nice and proper one,, we really need more skill and ingredience to do it...hehe..nice eh..i loving it.

coming to the week

yo, i use today to complete my presentation stuff..next week got 1 tuff tuff assignment need to submit and test also. my coursemate worry like red ant. but me...never start yet, even the paper i havent see it. hehe. sometime i felt that our house lacking something at here...may be the atmosphere there. this few months ppl leave..i now jes get the new tenants move in to medium room. then next i wanna to build the house atmosphre and looking facilities. sometime many assingments and fyp hindren my. dun see me always stay in house and always face to the screen look like very siok. i jes busy for my assignment and sometime make me really kenot breath then je direct go behind the sofa and take nap. sometime, feel that whole body like very tired, and sometime sleep witout bath...ops.. when i start my fyp? ialso dun know..i think my friend also havent start yet...wow week 9 ciming soon...fast lo..i almost finish my studet life...in this stage, all my friends jes discuss working.. like es like tat... be storng..fast to get a nice job pls!! thanks

Bible Study

yesterday house prayer, we bible study. that good coz we got the time and study together and learn together. although difference ppl got their difference opinion, but we believe that one things our mind are same, we also love the Lord. just some small small things kenot accepted. we knew that bible always full of mysteque. we really need a lot of strenght and wisdom from God to study. this few days i seldom write my blog, the reasons very simple "busy". last week damn busy. for my prsentation and all the tests. this weekend i able to rest well in the house. is nice. yesterday, i and my housemates cooking in the house. this is the first time we cook, although that only simple food, however this able to help us fellowship together. i still plan every saturday, we cook in the house. the thing really difference! really difference wat u eat at outside. although some very spicy, very salty, or no testy at all. but we still finished it all the foods. hard to believe rite? maybe the food cook by our own more delicious. hehe. next time we can expert in cook dy..haha. home food better than outside one. if i know boil soup, that great. i wanna learn dy..atlest know how to boil one or two soups.anyway, now i enjoy my weekkend...siok!

My life~~

long time no touch my blog, actually this few days i got wrote my blog, but in the middle i padam it. no mood to write. latelly dun know y, damn tired, feel like very easy to get tired. although sleep and wake up, i still can sleep back. is it i need some medicine to me? busy for my presentation, my tests. sometime, really think i wanna give up and sleep la..tomolo test ignore it. but cannot. this my last sem be a student, must face the challenge wit all. last nite i tired until bath also no take then jes sleep. after morning jes realise sendiri one day din take bath. damn tired rite?hehe..human really kenot run out from the tired...few days a ago, han jiang called me and interviewed me by phone, ask about my situation in kl now, coz i apply the helping money from them,actually this i apply since my dad passed away. but until now they jes take action. i almost graduate. wat the poit now? actually i already forget it about this matter. success or fail. i also no care it dy. after tomolo, i think i able to take some rest... if not, i think i jes always study study..really no life....

Blur..~~

using my whole day for reading...sleep and read,read and sleep..mind very blur..and also tired. ops..feeling like an old man. no so active. well, tomolo got a test. study and study. sometime some body finding me also lazy to popek with them. suddenly feel that my bed damn nice..i can sleep and sleep. wow, same with next week, got one presentation and a test..that presentation very cham.. the tutor able to ask 1 hour questions. damn long, need to prepare well b4 going. test also need to prepare. time to fight. really dun know wat i wan to write in blog...anyway i stop here, and continue my study

mid sem dy!!

wow talk about mid sem still got wat want to talk? jes can express my self now busy+ing. assignments, tests, final year project need to rush. huhuhu..plus this sem taime table damn no sui..make me a bit rush. see me long dint write my blog. huhuhu. jes placed a sofa in the room... always sit there, feel nice coz i really can fall in sleep after that. anyway gambate for my lovely groupmates. latelly the assingment damn hard to do.. need more time to finish it..but like no mood go to do..haha..ops..latelly i became lazy no go to jog...very soli, damn busy latelly..really need more time to rest. alex chin gogogo

Sleeping..

Closing graduate all my friends jes like plan to go anywhere, some wanna move to far far aways coz of working. think tat wangsa no my coursemates will living here dy. during the begining of the skool..we plan stay together. but in the end, we still same like usual. maybe heard my courmates all wanna move. think tat..where i should go? i appreaciate this sem coz it is my last sem. no more dy. the coming days i busy for my student stuff..also the last i will busy for..next time i will busy working dy. utar life getting the end. should i go bek dy and be a normal kampung boy..hehe

Leadership Sharing

jes now jes visited my one friend, hard we really stay together and share with each other. God treat me so good, when i wan to find someone to share, really get one person to share to me. after shared, i felt i am like recharged...coz we both also leader, but jes differnt church...we hard to come out together coz she also need to busy for her own cg. so tonite jes really miracle we sembang so long. while she be a leader sometime, she also like kenot manage very well, but now wat i saw and wat i see, she really different with b4. to be a leader, who know the own problems? leader also human. so, sometime really neutralise our emo... but she be leader also very stress, coz members and also her leader. if for me, i think i more "hang fok" than her liao lo. we shared leadership experience with each other. how to evangelism, how to manage ur time, how to be more creative in the cg and bla bla bla...be a leader must always be creative and jes able to attract the members also. tonite i really get a lot. not only for her sharing, also let me get to know there got fridge wanna to sell it, washing mechine maybe got but need to wait unitl my friend move out. finally one of the worry things i settle lew...i prayer really get answer by God, and also get the cheaper fridge. hope this deal able to success for tmolo in Jesus name. the next thing, i pray for the new tenant, hope i let this house reback peachful and dun wan ppl move out dee..very tired~~hehe....

huhu, sociology lecturer looks down us~~

yesterday went to attend the sociology class, the indian lecturer came from pj campus with professional style and teach us. she dint knew our culture in the class. so, in the end she "no energy" to teach us during the tutorial class. coz our answer too "Good" (Honestly). then untill she kenot accepted our answer and thoght that we no serious in the class and direct said something to compare us with her pycology students. finally she direct let us go..the tutorial class jes end like tat. haiz..sad la her. week 4 this week ler, i think i need to prepare my heart and start my final year project dy. need to focus back the previous thing, but a lot of thing i forgot dy, now need to read bek..sian,...coz wanna set the qa queastion. anyway. in the final year, jes try my best and finish my BH. dont Give up...gambateh!

Coming bek la~~

finally went to penang trip and then bek to kl again..mood still always going up and down..with unstable, but i still need to get ready for my next thing. although feel tired, however still need to be strong. that week is coming..tat is all the ppl unlike week, even me..coz, we started to busy for our mid term and assignments..jes knew it next week we going to test..oh God. very fast rite? but time still passing like tat, never wait u also. but still cannot let go my hobby latelly, dun know y started from when, i like jogging alone, coz very queit, i can think many many things. even i can help ppl also...no think jogging only for health, but also evengelism for me. this is the time, only fast or slow, so, we must be patience to wait..that rite moment we put it. sometime i felt we like a kite...form the first..got the string to pull u, then the kite jes able get high..but when u grow..u jes like the kite witout string..wind blowing u, sun, weather effects..u need to be independents and have the strong stamina to breakthrough. latelly i read a book told us how to manage our anger. it is true the book talked, when we face the anger, only 2 ways we do it, that are against or hide it. actually that no good to keep it...but u also need to control well, but over control also be worst..so must be smart..and also teach me how to be patience..the person have the patience will get successful in one day, even u create something also need long time. so must be patience. i think really need this 2 things, tha kGod let me see this things. i very appreciated it. any way..i think need to pray for my self dun worry so much la...hehe

hihi~~~bek to my blog

wow..actually this few days i got wrote blog, but in the middle i dint post to here...coz really no mood to write also..erm...how me latelly...haha, me ler, jes attended my leader wedding at flemingo hotel ....had a nice day to them. for me ler...latelly say busy still no busy,but i see my foresee busy..now now still very free..hhaha....but i also need to start plan my future...this few day friends always talk about future...i think need liao lo...kenot wait until tat time jes plan la...petrol increased, i also lazy get far far one..setapak area can already..i jes realised that i got hobby now, is think..i like to think many many think..dun know good or not good also..haiz..actually latelly still ok la, jes funny funny, put 2 two video at here...wanna delete jor...enjoy ba...

Looking for job

erm..this few days looking for job also..see them got any internship program give me or not...actually got sent out my resume to few companies..but this thing actually no need i worrid, but dun know i still still it for my self and find by my own. latelly my timing really turned and i wanna to turn bek...i cannot always morning jes able to sleep dy..i wanna sleep early..if not i treannly cannot attend the class. wow life feeling bored..dun know i still cannot get rise my self..still like very tired...jes hide in the room..haha..but i really hope everything will going smooth now..i know that house never be stop changing from this year until now.. half month dy..i really hope all really can staying already dun think about move dy...sometime felt tired. sometime asked the Lord..anyway i cannot fall, if i fall, all the house fall..jes able to support them and encourage them...i can do it....

i fat jor :x

aiya, today my friend said me fat jor eh? really kah..looks the life in hometown over good liao..now is the time i wanna keep now...i already make a decision wanna keep until 65kg, now i 70kg ler...kenot kenot...so, start from now, i one day jes eat one meal, the meal is biscuit and milo..i already make the decision...dont temp me dy...i belive i can do it...tell me..i can do it!!!!

重返忙碌的生活:

回来一个礼拜多，可是很快的就这样的结束，等下早上还要坐早的巴士回到KL. 真有点不舍得呀。可是还是要回去了。回到自己的家，感觉很舒服，睡在自己的床上，好享受。在这里，我真的能睡到下午在起身。没烦恼。什么都不用想，睡醒了就吃，吃完了就玩，晚上还和朋友玩到早上才回来。大家都很把握时间，因为大家的聚会就是那么的少。这几年，我在外头都很少在自己的家乡。以前自己的愿望就是很想到外面去闯，可是现在，还真的累了，又是还很想念自己的家。看，在自己的家，我的日记是特别多，可是到我回到外面时，又是不一样了! 这次该算是我最后的做学生的日子啦。。过了这次，我应该和学生的生活说再见啦。做了十七年学生。哈哈。该换换自己的身份了。这次的回去，又不知道几时才会回来这里。其实现在我也已经有了将来的打算。我已经打算在本地先做几年拿了工作的经验后，再过新加坡去，家人亲戚很鼓励我去新加坡去。做那边公民。。其实这个我也有想过，可是那时还是读书。所以就放弃啦。。看来自己现在最重要的就是工作经验。希望一切还很顺利。我生活已经改变。脚步也开始快了，或许要休息，就是我退休的时候，可是到时不知道还有没有时间写我的日记，其实我真的很想把我的日记，在我从我现在到老都影成一本书，这本就是我一身的书。哈哈。。把我一生写成了一本书，这可多好，现在已经三点多了，可是还是不累，我打算等到早上上巴士了。看看还有什么事可以做。。好啦，到此停笔了啦，到了KL 才见了!! 再见!! 。。。

家乡的思念:

每当回到自己的家，往往都会有好多的徘徊，徘徊到自己的童年。朋友，家人。最近的朋友聚会，大家都长大了，可是话题也没有以前那么可爱，大家都问候着对方。个有个的去路啦。每当回到家，真的很想在这里呆久一点，可是时间还是残恶的，都不会听下来等人。站在我家的窗内看出去外面，突然想起以前童年和童年的朋友。大家都玩得好开心，有哭有笑。嘻嘻哈哈的日子很快的过去。以前大家都很喜欢星期五，星期六。因为不用读书，我们可以从早上玩到网上，早上和他们去吃早餐，然后就开始这里玩，那里玩。多么的开心。可是现在搬的都搬走了。搬的搬，嫁的嫁，读书的读书，工作的工作，回来这里，都很难联络到对方。回来了这里，又是去夜市场，看到的小妹妹都不认识的。剩下我们这些老鬼，在那边飘来飘去，还闹要找冰淇淋去。我们的时代已经成已过去。是否还记得我们的蒲公英的约定? 大家都大了，小时后的约定已经不重要了，最重要的还是现在，将来。。谢谢我童年的朋友，陪我走过那么美丽了童年。。。。。。

overnight lepak….20/5

wao, tonite went out with my primary school mates, they need go to camp tomolo, so, last gathering wit them. That moment we went to yam cha, went cc play game, and then they bought me went to penang ate cha kuey tieu wit fried duck egg, wao..very special rite? But the duck egg same wit chicken egg lo, first time I eat fried duck egg..haha..bek to hometown really can neutralize all my emotion, my physical and etc. sometime, feel that hometown life really no so rush, everything come out dim sum wit friends yam cha wit friends birding wit friends..stay at home enjoy ama cooking. Life very nice. But after bek to kl. All the things need to face it. Especially now, final year, house, study, everything need to face it. Maybe God training me now b4 I go out to work. But I really learned a lot, although the period very hard to pass, however I still can see out the good thing from the bad circumstances. It I think very useful for my future. Sometime be leader, heart cannot be soft already, sometime really need to know how to reject ppl, God really train me in the good way, so child until now, my heart always be soft, now I start to train to be hard, and also dare to speak out my comment to them. Everything I still need more strength to do it. And I also belive that God always beside me and teach me how to do. Sometime I really get it the God try to tell me something. Everything. Must follow the time, and also must be the rite time. The time haven’t come and u do it, in the end u will get it perfectly. Last time I tot leader very to do. But now, leader no the easy to do. But I still need to follow up and learn how to do. It might useful for my future also..+)

Hometown Gathering: 17/5

Well, tonite I have a wonderful gathering with my primary and secondary school mates. Many years dint saw them already.. suddenly I became a organizer pulak…haha..still wanna thanks you for those give face and come. All have their own thing to do, hard to get the rite time to gather. Chit-chat wit them and know also wat they to do lately. Tat great.come to fellowship also ma. Haha. I home nex time we still have the time to gather all. Miss u all ya!! Muaks!

WHC Church Camp 2008

wao..3days 2 nights camp so awesomes..i jes bek from the genting peacheaven..also let mi learned a lot from there, never forgot the moment have fun with my teammates. although the schedule arranged until very pack and we play until so fatigued also, however we still get the meaning at there, it also help in ppl grow wit mature. also lepak at genting a while..very tired after bek to kl...tomolo wanna bek to hometown dy. jes wanna help my mother doing something, especially the financial problems..she help me apply jor a subsidiary from a acciociation. i need go bek and do and interview. and also wanna bring my book bek to hometown, coz my uum friend wan my text book for her research. and another thing is my friend wedding....i need to go also..after be a leader, the first thing wat i wan to learn is dare to say out..everything i must say out..Hope God always around me..actually i really wan to pray for B-15-6 house. this year one come one out..none stop to continue it...when this house able to stay wit harmony? maybe this able let me grow more mature..anything i surrender to God..the destiny, the problems, everything i surrender to Him. open they heart and grow mature, dont coz all move also follow the season and move..!

Proverbs 15:17

yesterday went to jj, suddenly got a person she gave me this brochure...after i read all, i get that a lot of verses inside the brochure. one of the verses was proverds 15:17, there was "Better a meal of vegetables where there is love than a fattened calf with hatred. so, from this verse, we must eat vege coz where the love is greater than the calf!! haha....anyway...so far i still kennot accept meat...when i see meat i no really got that faith to take it..maybe i already sian for that meat liao gua...haha..always told ppl i wanna take, actually i joking there. haha,

Today is a Good day!

Finally my one exam paper released jor...very happy is this paper was most worried for me..coz this is the last paper i took tat day..where know so fast mark jor...then i pass this paper..then i can put down a bit liao, no need worry so much...now ler. still wanna waiting 3 papers result, i think tomolo will release again la..jes hope this week release all la..then pass all, then i can bek early jor!! haha..today really is a good day, today went badminton wit friends...actually we went to pro 1 wanna rm25 per hour...God bless us, that time all full, so, we fail to get the court,then,changed place lo..we went to melati there..when we reached there, we dint saw any jaga ppl at there, but door still open, so..we jes direct went in play la..dint care so much..haha..finally we save the money to book the badminton...no need waste the $$ to book it in pro 1...haha..today really is a goof day!! thanks for God bless, and everyday!!amen!! wakakak!

Result Havent release..

wow...omar so slow...mark very slow..today already monday havent release..i think tomolo will out liao la...if not..he wanna kena "dang tong gu" !!wakakaka ....everybody seem confident and bek jor...i still waiting the coming of church camp....still few days..wait wait wait...result also...when come out?fastter ler..dun so man man...today playing guitar until my hand quite pain liao...wanna do something special....wat ler?? break guitar?wajakak..actually i also dun know y i write blog today..i also dun know wat i merepek!! damn damn damn....jes for fun gua..may be
haha
anyway..bibi

My 23th Birthday Presents!!

Baby Milo Shirt From Sista!

Moo MOO fROM Jun

Photo Frame from Cg Members

Honda Wallet From Doraemon

McD Toy "Iron Man" From Caleb Lee

LaLa Shirt from Ashley!

Yeah! my 23th birthday finally get a push stop..at here wanna thanks for those celebrated birthday with me and ur all presents! this years present get more than last year!! haha, shirt got 2...wakakaka..jes wanna snap down all my presents and share wit my friends..also also wanna thank for those pas laju sent the present to me also..wakaka..i will appreciate those presents and that moment! any way...besides thanks still is thanks!! thanks for everything! thank s my God!! give thanks to all! yes!! haha! too high izzit? ok la...also thank for all ur wish!! huraaay! lalalala~~~

小牛，生日快乐 ^^

终于，又要说一句，我考完了!!可是心情还是一样，应该是我的心情早已是放假的那种心情了吧，所以没有什么感觉。 今天又大一岁了啦。。其实也没什么关系，只是面临死亡又更进一步了。。。。呵呵。其实好累，可是又不是很想睡觉，还是坐在这里玩玩facebook，玩玩，日记本。。还要在这里呆多一些时间。。好累。。要做的都做了!!觉得现在非常的热，不知道什么天气。。。。。很不喜欢这样的感觉。。。好想回家。。。。回家真好..hometown朋友又结婚了啦!!25/5。。。。到时又要去了!!哈哈。。我还是一个人的过。。。。。

To the lao ngek ngek...

the Box Put moo moo dee!! mmoo moo take pic wit the box




the big head of moo moo
mu turn to turtone the mmoo moo..wakakak


moo and his friend!!
yesterday, dun know y, on my table disappear this thing..i tot was a boom inside..after i wear the amor siap siap and prepared to open the box...mana know after open...see one cow inside...aiyo..tat moo moo very cacat...put hp inside the head will overtune..haha, i also dun know wat i wan to put liao..so jes keep it la..where know today the lao ngek ngek always rush me to upload the pic let her see see..so, take take some nice pic let her see see la...ur mmo mmo already in my hand...wakakaka..dun woorry i will not turtone him dee..i will feed him..he got many friends here..wajakakaka..

被风吹过的夏天~~

刚才站在外面吹吹风，那个感觉真的很爽，有时候读到自己已经无法去集中读书时，我都会到外头吹吹风，被风吹的感觉很凉，很爽，看这这里的风景，还令我呆呆的站在那边不想走。 有时候的人好渺小，感觉这个地方那么大，可是人是那么的小， 有时候人家都很想自己有机会可以在这个地方留下名字，可以让人家好好的记得他，我呀。。只想好好的吹风，感觉真的不错。。。。明天的最后一张，我会全力以赴。。。。。打倒他落花流水。。美!

Last Paper for tomolo~~

today 1st of may is labour day eh..but for me still wanna studying ler for tomolo last paper..wao, soon reach that end of exam liao...i hope no any problem la, let me sun sun pass all, haha..i think after tomolo, my life become meaningless liao..haha..joking man..actually wanna bek kulim but still got something havent finish at here..wanna do siap siap liao,after new sem come, i can get really early...house getting more empty..coz housemates balik jor...after this week i think more teruk liao..haha..nevermind, i think i need to find something to do also..tomolo last paper actually my mood already after exam liao...no much wan to read...jes study all the calculation nia..hope tomolo all the calculation can score! aiyo..my hair getting longer...wanna cut also liao la..after exam wan go saloon find mui mui liao..haha..actually now i very fatigue, jes woke up..actually i no energy to wake up..getting sleepy..ppl old lioa jes like tat la..wanna find something to bubu mmy body..haha...jes say one, good bye to my dear housemates and see u all next sem la!! little cow wanna bia for the last paper again!! gambate!! moo moo!! yes!

Iron Man~~

Today jes finished my 3th paper, waiting the last paper coming on this friday...feeling very exited coz i wanna finish my exam dy haha, jes back from the one utama, really hard to e book the ticket, so jes went there to buy, 1 utama got 2 cinema, tgv and gsc..but gsc one a lot of ppl, so we jes bought the tgv one lo...reached there get 11pm show..then went there lepak lepak, ate amw...hehe..today 1 utama got the fashion competition..a lot of ppl there ler..bek to the iron man show, damn nice..i think long time i dint said any movie nice liao...very good go to see, really one..after u see u will amaze to the technology...jes bath and sit here writing blog liao, damn tired, jes now slept in the car..haha..really too tired..after exam i think i need sleep witout set time..tat great..but hard lo..always said like tat, but tat time coming, sure no sleep,lepak whole day one..haha...

New Blog For Little Cow

yeah...finally i used 3 days to move my all blogs from friendster to here..134 posts...wao..i tot one day can settle where know i need use 3 days =.=, really tired..the reason i move to here, coz friendster really no much function let me play, although now my blog jes released, but will promise u all i will add in more functions here. 134 posts, i got read some..really make me remember something hehe, i can see from last time until now a day punya today..sad,happiness all inside..actually i got remove a lot of part during i and my gf moments...but now i jes hope i able to reserve all this old posts..haha...thanks for my fans wor..come here support me..next time my blog will post here already, no more in friendster!! remember liao lo!!! erm...my housemates getting less ler..coz all balik kampung jor..me still wnna suffer until this friday..but nevermind la...finish my exam fisrt jes plan all my thing..this period no much study la, jes have a look for all the thing...i only aim pass nia ma...so no much stress like them..jes hope i can pass all,i happy jor..i no a tamak ppl..wakakak..

Wong Kok

Today, celebrated birthday with my friend in pj wong kok, took few hours jes reached there coz sesat..wakakaka...but in the end still reach there, very dam hungry, and order and rice, and drink..very full to eat there, dun know y, or i ate b4 i go? damn tired for today..woke up at 4am..then exam..reach home take nap only few hours..then celebrated birthday wit friend..somemore sesat go untiil subang..lol..after that nite...now actually my energy damn damn low...hope later i have a good rest and sleep kao kao eh!! God bless me kao kao!! wakakak!

nice boh?

today put some pic let u all see see, this two pic were my friend sent to me when he at the look up point...this place i only went to one time only, buy we able see through all the kl..very nice oo...last time we use hp took the pic, but no so cantik..this time..this snaped wit very rite view and very nice..from here..we can see all the kl..we called this place small genting also la, suitable for tat dating dating one...although came kl almost 2 years, however i never saw the nite view in kl lo..this time i alble to see it..really memorable..i hope i able to go there again..but no now la..haha, maybe wait me got car already then jes go la!! recommended to those couple lo!! haha!

Jusco Gift

wao, yesterday i received a lot of coupons from jj, got nando la, kenny rosters la, all eat one...haha, but all like very expensive one..haha, dun blame me ma..ppl wan save money...very poor lo..wat i doing latelly, very gao gao, burn the next paper burn until so suffer, then went out play ps with friend...sian..lazy to memo, should say impossible to memo, need to understand it..quite suffer, coz no mood to study at all...somemore think about go where to lepak after the exam..haha. latelly i quite long no play my guitar...jes put over there. sumtime take out my lao ya harmonica to play..after exam, really wanna find my lecturer call him repair my harmonica...haiyo...latelly nothing happen la..jes exam nia..finish on 2/5, yeah..hope no resit paper for this time la..wei aka, tian shi jie jie wer..haha..got any gift wanna give me boh? tian shi jie jie should give me bit bit give..i no so greed la. i wan my parent all be fine can liao..no so greed rite..hehe

Fat Man

wao...dun know y, i always think tat those fat guys they all very nice to chat..their very active..and still know how to joke...last time i am tat kind person...but after keep fit..very naturally u will come out one anger in the heart..izzit..some time when u get, u also need to sacrified some thing? wao..tomolo exam eh..actually nothing to scare one, but dun know the atmospheara makes like very kan chiong..but nevermind la...jes do it like usual..yesterday mama called me, talked very long also...sunday sunday..later got serve.. very funny i tot today i no serve..but God bless open my physical eyes see clearly the usher list..if not..wakakak...erm..wake up jor..wat to do? study bah..hehe ^^

stamina getting low...

sista, know u curi tengok la...go study! aiyo...ppl getting older and older, energy also getting decrease..jes play badminton wit friends..they are young..all full of energy..me? play few games then need to take a rest. 2 hours actually enuff for me dy..now..wanna admit old also cannot lor now.. everything must follow the age..cannot push our self too over like b4 dy..last time? call me play still full of energy..wow, went to there released some stress good also eh..excersice really can make ppl release the stress..especially that kind of hard one..really make u release a lot of energy..after bath..the feeling very nice..but the next day..ur body will very siok...wakka..i also dun know wat i talking about...blek..exam getting close and close..no much study lo..tell u honestly..dun know latelly my up stairs renovating or wat...morning morning so noise..make me cannot sleep well..aiyo..hope tat the thing can end soon. the feeling very good, saturday still wanna go realease release again! wakakakaka! bibi

Alex, study week jor eh!!

hai yo, tis year, i become lazier, a lot of class i dint attend also...issit, final year student always like tat? coz final year, really getting less and less thing to study..most of the times jes focus on our final year project..after submmited the fyp, the time will getting free than b4..nothing to do dy, this week is utar study week jor, a lot of my friends and utar friends started to be hardworking, included me also la..hehe. it can see the msn a lot of ppl put the title, exam, exam, exam...maybe this is the exam season..all reload their bullet liao,i think.. this exam, for me really enjoy, i dun know y? only 4 sub..the tips give to us very obvious.. but also need to study la, got tips no study how can...i like tis time exam...hehe, jes very like, no reason lo...see, april coming dy, jes rethink bek, promise my hometown friends will meet them in may while the chinese new year..time pass fast..next month i able to meet them dy..hehe.but after i come bek to kl again, i think i less to bek to hometown jor, if my industrial training in kl, then after the last sem, i have to go traning immediatelly jor.. now i dint find any company, i think i jes depend utar find for me..lecturer encouraged us take master, but for me..my education limitation jes able reach until this level..the final year, i will more appreaciate my gathering wit my classmates, coz after v graduate, i think most of the time, v jes focus on work...anyway..jes surrender to God, depend He wan to send me to where..wakaka..all say amen!

my harmonica

final year, actually i really hope all our cg able to lead by the guitar..i really hope i able take out my harmonica at the cg..but i think this chance =0%. long time i dint play my harmonica dy.very miss it..exam coming soon, God always Good, i hope i able do all the best in my exam. let God arrange my path to me. thanks Lord..

long time dint write blog..

getting lazy to write dy, dun know y..jes now do a thing, i dun know is i wrong or rite, i jes rejected a girl she told her feeling to me. am i make a rite decision? so sorry i really cannot promise anything to her. i dun wan be the burden to her also..i know wat the situation now i am, i wan take care my self hard also, then how to take care to her again ler. better be the friend rite, wish her able get the better than me one la...i feel good now, i busy my study, my church, my houseworks. wat i wan to achieve now is my successful career. other thing, dun wan to think yet la..

out look point

yesterday i went pavillion to watch 10,000 BC...actually the movie quite bored...the ending like nothing special..after that we went to out look point where located at upper hill, ampang there. very nice that place,i can view all the kl nite on the top. better than we sit the eye on malaysia. we had a dinner on the top and view the kl nite, the life very beautiful. a lot of couple like to come here have their candle light. but food there very expensive la. anyway cannot get the good camera take the picture, but very nice i able see the kl nite..really memoryful!!

Taman Pertanian

finally, i submited my final year project 1, wow i started busy since i bek from the chinese new year till now. every nite could not sleep well. ot plus ot... but now, jes feel like a bit free coz i completed jor. yesterday went to taman pertanian, shah alam there cycling..actually quite long i dint touch bike, so yesterday got the bike, i use all my energy to go every where. actualy this also a way to release my tension. quite song...when stress, do some execise which able exhaut ur energy one, very nice. tired, but memory.

happy valentine?

life changed bek to usual, chinese new year already passed few days ago. went bek to kl and started my busy life. when i bek to homwtown, wat i like is all my steps will automatically slow down. and relax in hometown. anything no need too rush. so, in my house, i able sleep until very late, but in kl, only few hours i can sleep then automatically i will wake up. this year is my last year, also is my busy year. wat i very worry is my final year project. seem a lot of thing i need to plan, but time not alow me plan too long. anyway, so far i finish 2 assignments already then next week will be my last week to rush my project. soon, this week will be my week six of the lectures, few weeks need to go again to my final exam. today is velentine's day. for the single, i only accompany my assignment and celebrate the valentine's day. in my mind now, i only hope i really can finish my project, finish it....

Hard to Breath~~

week 1 , we get all the assignments already. wow feel stress. all the assignments need a lot time to do. plus my FYP. my FYP need to summit in week8 that mean next month i need summit dy. i still shaking leg again. finally i use the morning time to finish my project 1 planning and need to let my supervior comment it. but still wannathank hai chuan provide me that fyp info, i jes able plan my project properly. hope my supervisor satisfy it what i planning!

B-15-6 Brothers Revive

after passing 2 weeks witout internet life, our brothers felt desperated dy. but yesterday internet came, all jes like a rise from sleep, youtube, downloading, all come...included me also la,haha.. finally i able doing my thesis at this time and uploading something dy. my life turn bek student life. although time flexible however still have a lot of assignments need to do. plus latelly my house all exam, moving house. ktar wanna long holiday lol. my house will getting less ppl. anyway in the new year. i jes hope this year i able complete my degree and gratuade it!

2008

finally bek from homwtown dy, but wangsa maju here have a bit boring ler...the life jes like nothing to do...oh my gosh..my home no internet..luckily got smart phone.. able to online.. fianally my life turn to student life dy.this year will be my busy year and also my final year...i hope alll my thing will smooth dun have any problem to happen, let me graduate it ok? house geting queit..all the ppl busy around. i think too early i bek... should stay lonnger a bit at hometown !! swat!

Over~~

wow, finally all are over, work over, christmas also same, now the life like throw out all the burdens, but dun be so satisfy yet! even every days is the christmas day! so, we cannot stop it...tomolo going back hometown lor, bek and take the rest, busy so long now can break and rest haha, so nice, the new year coming soon. i hope next year will be a great year for me! God can bless me every thing! i dun know how is it but i will be a strong person and Glorify His name!!

working vs study

Now i jes realise tat working ppl cannot spend more time very study ppl. working ppl need rest more, they need sleep early, cannot stay too late ...like wat the joseph said working life, jes like tat, i even cannot take more time wit them, even yam cha also wanna wait until friday or saturday.. actually i quite tired latelly. i really need refreshing ... actually who only can support ur self only one person,TATis Lord, even bro or sister they also got their own pro. cannot support u always. jesus U really r my bst friend1! everydau i wake up wit joyful! every day is great day! even the birds U also give them food to eat!! dun complaint so much! jes do it! thank Lord.

Open the eye of my hear Lord

jes now sang this song in the house prayer. although this song we sang many times b4, however, we still feel tat the song very nice and meaning full. this week will be my last week working, after tat wanna say good bye to my lovely collegues. today went to jj buy a chocalate plan to bless them. thank for them this few months for teaching me. Lord, trat me so good. dun know y, his presence already touching me. sadness, happyness always make ppl down or up. i be happy have U Lord. anyway, is the time wanna go bek to hometown dy. and prepare my new sem....

trust the God heartely

this month i choose working. in this month i learn tat, God more important in my life. after work, always morning wake up and come bek evening, life always be the same, even job also never change. human life very boring, when they lose purpose, but this world still gota thing called "money". so, this thing able to motivate them every day. for me, i feel better than them. coz i still got another thing again, and not only the money, this is my Lord. everyday i wake up from the bed, i really miss my housemate they can sleep until late late, every morning i give thank to the Lord, coz today is a great day for me although tired, i still give thank to Him. in the christian life i learn how i trust Him heartelly. nothing can compare wit Him. happy, unhappy, the life still keep continue. Lord, Lord.. i know tat, be a christian not only u wash out our sin and we get blessing. while we accept u as our saviour, tat moment we started pick up the heavy cross and walk wit u. Lord, i know tat the the way full of obstacles and challeges. be a christian i need to take the cross, never let U alone. i belive tat, i will get a lot of blessing from U. so, i choose to walk wit u. Lord take me ..thanks Lord!

Recording~~

now i reliase tat, recording is the most difficult thing to me...after my voice transfer to the mic or phone, then voice totally different dy. record many time, and listen back my voice, feel tat actually no any improve, still like tat. actually i also no idea how can make my voice be more stable. christmas coming soon. fast we have to celebrate new year dy.suddenly my mind need to rest it. refresh me k? in Jesus name i pray

on the way to Kingdom

seem long long time i dint touch my blog, sure la, working life totally different wit study life, the freedom already bind it, no every i will free. student good la, wan sleep anytime also can, wan wake up any time also can. but working life ler. haih...alway lay on the bed find many reason dun wan go to work, but finally still kump up and go.. this life make me very tired. but nevermind still got 3 weeks. than i free. i like tat time i bek. dun know y i very appreciate that 5hours in the house. i also appreciate saturday and sunday. the life different already. seldom meet my friends, any big news i also dun know. life going stagnate wat should i do? but i still be strong and face the 3 weeks... coz i live wit Him!! yeah

2 weeks gone

when started my working life, i realise tat, actually my life actually nothing, morning wake up early, take lrt, then work until 6pm, then take lrt again bek to here, then rest a while then go to bed b4 12am. every time repeat repeat. sometime i will feel like nothing, time always rob my self, be a student good, wanna do then do, wanna play then play, last time dun realise tat feeling, always think wanna working soon. my friends, always said assignment sian ar, but sometime i feel tat, assignment better then work. work if got anything wrong, u will get scold by boss, plus working, cannot spend more time wit friends, i feel tat, now friends became more and more far than me, i cannot get wat they think currently. friends always called yamcha, but sure i rejected. coz i scare tomolo i cannot get good enough energy to work. working ppl work suffer, on the other hand, they also big spend in their life, they need a lot of materials to fulfill their boring life. erm, actually dun see me always seat office very siok, actually quite tired, 8hours i do nothing, coz of the money, so always be strong to face it, time pass like tat, i dun know every i canot do wat again. but i still got few week need to go again, i think i will stop b4 christmas la. at least this sem i got work to do. then after christmas then balik kampung ,haha....

Deepavali

actually jes came bek from church, just had a great prayer in the church. deepavali can cuti a day, also let me rechrage my energy. always like tat, until now also dun wan go to bed. say i tired? looks no..issit latelly i train until can tahan dy? every day sit 8 hours office. now prayer like nothing, also no felt tired or wat. finally companny offer me to another level position. tat is head hunter. but this position, need to achieve their target, if not, in the end quite stress. they also wan the part time hunter, so even now u study they also can let u try it. but for me really no interest la, coz this position like wanna cheat ppl one, coz we need to find out the competitor details. so we have to use different technic to get the information from the competitor then to our client. plus i will not longer be there. so, still consider reject their offer. but my data entry look almost finish. around 10days i think i able to finish it, my speed able to break the record for tat company, so i choose make it slowly. dun be fast sometime. well today deepavali, i think shloud stay in house tidy up my things, nite find friend eat gua. working life should be continue it, actually my job already simple and good pay. hope tat i able to work until next month. if not haha...balik kampung again lor...

the time of working is most tired for me~~

every day i think i wanna to graduate soon and working, now this already make a reality for me? although this is temporary, however, i already realised it work more suffer than study. after a week i working in office as an admin. i already felt very very bored there. coz 8hours i only sit there, and only my fingers move, whole body nothing to move. i cannot sit there longly person. so every time i hope finish my work soon. my work also bored until i dun know how to say. for me wanna get a suitable job for our self very hard. every time, we like binding by the time, cannot control it jes let it control.last day had lunch with my collegue, from they heart i knew that they aso work under the stress, although saturday and sunday is the holiday, howerver, in their life, every hours also is they working hour. coz sometime their client only free in the weekend, so, they really need to sacrify their time to meet their client.after a week i realised tt, kl ppl doing everything also fast, even eating, they also very fast. look like cannot get slow. they told me, if u get slow, u will be disdominate, so when younger, really need to work hard. for me, izzit we need fast? i scare one day we fast until the end we get nothing, but life here is like tat. u cannot be slow, even take LRT also need fast and push. if not, u always behind ppl. always face all the OL..me also feel nthing. having lunch most of time alone. but only temporary. if long term staying there, i think i really cannot tahan it....

working life started...

b4 coming bek to kl, always worrried about hard to get the job, but never expects so fast only bek to here a day then start to work dy. telling God,my needs, always kacau God to give me work. now He really give me a good payment work, for me is ok liao la, as long as i get job, can spend my free time, get income then no problem. actually tat day in my mind really no interesting for this. coz i search the work all the night, jes start wan to sleep at 7am till 9am like tat, they called me dy. tat time i really dun wan to go, but got a strong energy push me go, plus i also appoint liao my lecturer wanna accompany him go to site visit. but tat day dun know y, i really go to change my shirt and go to work, i also dun know y? on the way to work, i already wanna tell lecturer i may no go, but the lecturer automatic sms me and told me site visit postpone.. wao.. this time everthing settle. i jes put all my heart go to see the job. in very funny situation, i get into it and started work. collegues all very good, after they teach me jes let me at there do my things, izzit first day got this offer or wat, after a while jes know all of us is came from son of God, may be our religion are same, so we able talk wit happly. in company, jes heard jesus name, still tell me after work and get the salary ,remember put ur 10% offering oh..wakaka..so far for me ok la, every people good. i also hope i able to spend more time wit them again..

在家的最后几个小时:

“环境真的可以改变一个人” ，如果要改变环境，就要看看那个人有多大的能力。回来这里足足三个礼拜了。终于等下就要离开这里，重返kl在继续我的事情了。虽然现在还是我的假期，可是那边始终有事情做，还是要回去的。这次回来最重要还是看爸爸妈妈。爸爸还是这样，装在玻璃箱子里面。妈妈呢，见面时间很少，应为她要工作。所以能见面的时间就是她放工回来和周末没有工作的时间。家里就是我一个人在那边看电视，和等妈妈的回来。这三年我到外面去读书，注定就是和父母分开一段时间。我到kl，至少还有朋友的照顾，可是妈妈一个人在家，有时候还很担心。这个就是我的命吗? 时间，很仁慈，但是有时候很残忍。钱虽然重要，可是亲人更重要。其实这次回来家里三个礼拜，现在的心真的很不想回kl，很难得我有三个月的假期，可是在这里，又没事做。心里真的很挣扎。到底我要些什么呢? 有时候，更本就没有答案，何必一直要找出答案? 孩子，在每个父母中，都是幸福的。在家好吃好睡，何必回去呢? 可是看到妈妈那么的辛苦工作，而自己就无所事事的呆在家。蛮无聊，所以无论如何，今天我要踏回kl。在继续我忙碌的生活。这次回来呢，也和朋友们玩得很开心，可是时间很有限。大家相聚时间很少。今天学妹打给我，越明晚见面，可是明天我都回家了，何见? 从电话中知道她没有再继续她的学业了。我没有说什么，对我来说，以前我也是这样的想法，可是现在呢? 对我来说乘年青时能读就读，不然什么都不会，就会被这个社会淘汰。其实我很讨厌回家的那个路程，不管来还是回，那段时间是我最讨厌的，如果kl在我隔壁有多好呢? 2007 年也会完了，下次回来有可能是要2008年了吧? 无论如何还是有喜有悲，喜就是我可以再看到我的朋友们了，悲呢，心里还蛮担心母亲。生活还是在继续，这个三个礼拜，共写了十多篇日记。不知道为什么，就很想把这个时刻的感想记下来，变成了自己的回忆。。。。。。。

旧照片:

刚刚翻起了旧照片来看，从我爸和我妈认识然后结婚，生了我的过程。看着自己在照片中一直长大的我，已经不是以前那么可爱的小孩子了。现在可是一个不管做某种事情都要负责任的大人了。没有人会在保护你，而是要反过来保护自己的亲人。有很多事，不是在一边哭，就可以解决，反而，要勇敢的面对。我已经不是当年天天都带着笑容的那个男孩了，而是一个满天心事的大人，我在也不是一个只是会玩的小孩了。反是都要以正经事为重。我再也不是当年的脆弱男孩了，无论现在多么的脆弱，还是要爬起来向前走。我已经不是以前那个一直依赖人的小孩了，而现在什么事都要亲历亲为。无论如何，我只想告诉大家，我已经长大了。我已经不是当年的一个小孩。。。。。

心事:

每个人都有自己的心事，有时要找一个知己来分享，可是很难找。跟他说，有时他都不明白我们的状况。所以人人常说，人生得一知己，死于无憾。在我爸爸一去世后，自己的心事也慢慢的增加，虽然有些可以自己解决，可是有些真的不说就可以解决。其实一直以来，我都很想毕业，虽然听起来很普通，可是这个真真是我最大的一劫。我非常的担心自己毕不到业。原因不是成绩不好，而是自己的financial 出现了一些问题。一直以来，我都自己安慰自己，没事的，这是最后一年的问题，现在都还没到，无论我怎样逃避，事实依然是存在。总有一天我还是要面对这个问题。2008年就是我最后大学的一年，也是一个非常时期。能不能毕业，真的就是看这一年了。现在的我慢慢的踏入最后一年，其实我也是评着见步走步一直走下去。可是到最后我真的会有点问题。其实我出声，亲戚是有的，可是我实在欠他们太多了，就当我爱面子吧。以现在看来，其实学费应该没有问题，可是如果我的load要cover我的学费和生活费，就有点问题，我只能cover在一个方面，有学费就没有生活费，有生活费就没有学费。怎样好呢? 到了现在，我还是抱着见步走步而走。希望这一劫我真的可以熬过。最后一年了。是时候面对自己的问题了。。。。

早上的星期四:

啊，回来这里也两个礼拜了，下个礼拜我就要回去了。回来这里的目的就是charge一下自己，这个拜六做好律师的东西和换了roadtax应该没什么了，这次下去还有点紧张，因为不曾在kl工作，还是第一次在那么远做工。希望这次是顺顺当当的没有什么事情发生。刚刚收拾我的房间，发现有一袋东西在我的房间里，开来看过后，完全都是以前我和笔友们来的信，打开来一边的读，发现自己以前是那么的会关心人，所以他们喜欢和我交朋友。可是不知道什么时候开始，我已经不会怎样的去关心别人了，反而我需要朋友的关心。我变了吗? 很多东西每天都在周围里一直的变，是否自己也是受到周围的影响而改变了自己? 什么在改变呢? 思想?? 变成熟了? 还是? 以前在我做工的时间，天天都觉得自己的经验比学业更重要，我认为读书只是在浪费自己的时间。每次我都会跟我学妹说不必读那么多，可是现在，我反而觉得学业还蛮重要，乘自己年轻的时候该读点书，要是以后才要读就慢了。看到自己的学妹开始要放弃学业真的有点心酸。希望她不要后悔她所做的一切。

欢乐的时光:

终于欢乐的时光又要到了一个结尾。朋友明天也回了，他们也要开学了。我们朋友在一起的时间真的很少，不像以前那样，中学时候，天天都见面。刚才出来喝茶时，大家都说起中学的趣事。说真的我们真的很难得回来才短短几个礼拜，其实，我我的心理有时还蛮挣扎，这里有我的亲人和朋友， kl也还有一般很难得的好朋友。其实我还蛮喜欢他们，可是有时回到了kill，就少了和家乡的朋友在一起的时间，还有少了时间在家里陪妈妈。妈妈每次做工，一个礼拜说真的只有一天的休息，很难得大家在家里。朋友们也是，可是在这里呢，我又很想念我kill的朋友。这几年会较多的参他们。其实这次回去，大家都叫我在圣诞节开party，通常在这边,organiser就是我，因为我在这里算最闲的了，大家要工作。现在的生活，就是kill和吉打两边走。当我毕业时，到底我会在那里呢? 出来欠政府前，还要养妈妈，要买车，屋子呢? 吃呢? 老婆呢? 孩子呢? 样样都是钱。可以想象得到，爸爸以前是多么的辛苦，氦。。。我爱我的朋友，妈妈。。还有爸爸。。现在什么能让我做呢? 尽量照顾自己别让自己被伤到和被你伤害的人。

很逼真的梦:

当一个人躺在地上和一边听音乐时，突然会在一种清醒的情况下发梦，非常的真，可是有不敢相信，突然整个人会从梦中跳起来。原来自己在发白日梦。今天电视机出院了，家里还算增加了一个娱乐的东西。明天和朋友出去玩，希望在这几天可以珍惜一下大家的友谊。

想念爸爸:

回来这里也一个礼拜了，每天在家里呆着，有时会想起爸爸。以前晚上大家都会聚在一起，在一间家里，爸爸放工了，就会帮妈妈在后面剪布，而妈妈就在车衣，而我放工过后就会做在客厅看电视，虽然每天都是这样的过，最重要的还是大家在一起。现在爸爸已经不在了，而妈妈要在外打工而养这个家。家里的那种气氛已经消失了很久，整间家，就是我一个人在家，非常的安静。有时看着爸爸去世的地方，心理还是有点酸酸。爸爸做的椅子，爸爸的机车，爸爸修理的电器，我都保管起来，妈妈每次叫我丢了它，机车拿去卖了它，可是我都不舍得拿去卖和丢掉。因为这些都是唯一我可以保管的东西，爸爸的机车好久都没有走了，听了好久。我都不想拿去卖了它，生前时，爸爸很喜欢他的机车，是我和他一起去选的，虽然是二手车，可是它对我来说有多大的意义。其实我很爱这个家，虽然不是什么富贵的家庭。可是爸爸都会爱这个家。可是平时的生活我们缺乏了沟通，在我懂事开始，大家的沟通少了，大家有秘密就是不说出来。知道后也是太迟了。真的很想让妈妈休息了，让她去玩，去享受。时间也过得很快，回来这里已经一个礼拜了。刚刚和朋友打球回来。说真的，好久没有动我的球拍了。也快生锈了。打完了球，和朋友去喝两杯。 LOCAL U 他们也放假了。都回来了，和他们聚了一聚。很快的，UTAR又要开学了。我朋友这个礼拜又要回去了。可是还没有和他们游到泳呢，泳裤都带回去了，可是还没有用到呀。这几天都和朋友有一连串的活动，他要回了麻。不玩，我们真的要等到新年了。岁月不留人，什么已经不重要了，最重要的珍惜身边的每一个人。

可怜的家:

今天电视机坏了，终于发觉到家里好多东西都开始坏了，可是不敢修理，等下没钱就不好啦。有些呢，快要坏了，所以现在很小心的用。没办法，现在是非常时期。万一有什么问题就惨了。很想快快毕业也!! 好久喔。。。家里的东西，能自己修理就尽量自己来吧，如果真的不能才打算。真的要很小心的用。最近好像养成不好的习惯了，到了早上才要去睡觉，都不知道自己在做些什么。现在家里没有电视看，只有看这没有的上网的电脑。还觉得蛮闷的，可是没办法拉。忍一下吧。快要四点了，可是还不想睡，怎么办好? 看样子现在还不能会kl。还有好多的事还没有做，还以为回来没事做，看来还需要待多一阵子才可以回来了啦。。。。

星期日:

刚刚睡醒，昨天和一大班的朋友们喝茶，好久没有那么看到那么多人了，全都来，真给面子。始终，还有一个比较多废话的朋友，如果没有他，就没有那个气氛了，哈哈。本来打算周末大家一起去玩，可是大家都有节目。只好约他们过几天打羽球，和游泳。好啦，今天没什么要写的，要忙自己的去!! 再见!!

Day 2 in the house:

Today nothing special happen, stay in the house whole day and eat, drink, sleep. Life so enjoy. Long time din have this life already. Always busy and busy. Sometime we stop it and see, we will see a lot of wonderful things around us. But we only busy always. So we can’t get the wonderful things around us. Stay in house tiding my things. And checking all the house expenses and income. Make it simple to mum. Today I jest realize that a lot of things in the house already broken. Need to fix it. But all this things need some money lo. Still cannot repair all this things. How ler? Wat can I do? Nothing lo, jest use it with careful. Jest now received a called from my friend. Great to hear his voice. Very exiting now coz tomolo will meet my friends. Long time dint see them, dun know they become fat, slim, or what. Stay in house very boring, but in the contrast I really can take this opportunity to refresh my mind and my body, no internet here. although cause me inconvenience. However still feel tat good also, no ppl will kacau u. like u stay at the outside without any telecommunication. Now listen the music and reading some book. Jes now friend asked me wanna go to
Singaporeor not when hari raya. Haiz, I really long time no go to travel lor. Very miss travel. If now I got a lot of money, I sure go here go there. Ok la, nothing special today. Plus nothing to do, so jes writing some wu liao blog la, haha….ya, tomolo wanna going to visit my father. Tat day 1 year he pass away I no go back, coz exam season, now back liao,tomolo wanna go to see see him. !

回家的第一天:

终于到家了，虽然没有得上网写blog，可是还是offline写了，等我回到kl在把全部post上去。今天真倒霉，不知道为什么每次回家都会遇到倒霉的事情发生。有时感觉到回家也还蛮累的。因为如果只要一不小心，可能要半天才可以回到家。今天呢，到了PUDURAYA，那里知道今天的巴士那么的准时，平时都没有那么的准时，竟然跑掉了! 害的我在那边傻傻的等待，最后人家和我说才知道巴士走了，结果呢，上去COUNTER 那边和他们谈判。还说我迟到什么的，大叔，拜托，我早早就到了，还和你拿了bus number才下去，完全没有看到那辆巴士，硬说我迟到! 真讨厌。结果呢最后还好有一辆巴士专收我们这些无巴士可归的人。可是他们只是去北海，没办法啦，巴士走了，现在不坐，就没什么巴士了。只好乖乖的听他们的话，上了那辆巴士。果然是收那些没有巴士可归的人，在巴士内等了要一个小时多，要等到满人为止才甘愿开车! 真欠打! 终于开车了! 不知道那个司机的尿特别的多，天天都停! 搞到我早上回到了北海已经是五点多了!! 坐到我全身酸痛。到了北海，还要等巴士回局林。下了巴士既然给我看到 RAPID KL可是不是叫rapid kl 啦，既然叫 rapid penang哈哈，还有那边的人开始要想在那些每次站在puduraya那些人那么的热情了! 从外面问到里面! 很不耐烦的说，很想两粒给他! 等了一个小时多才可以回到家，回到家终于累倒不像样，睡去了! 最后还是到家了，看到以前的东西，也想起了以前的梦想，可是最后选择了来kl读书，放弃了好多的东西，人是回来了，可是这里什么都没变，还是这样的老样子，可是人呢，变了好多。希望这次的回来可以和朋友们玩久一点。。。。

Day b4 bek hometown~~

wow, tomolo balik kampung, now taking a decision dun wan to sleep tonite. but dun know i can tahan whole nite or not. very happy coz i really miss my hometown friends they all, i already sms them gather them saturday nite yam cha liao,wakka, bo huat la,all big boss need get early appointment first. all the thing already pack, wow,better got a friend accompany me balik. if not sure boring while in the bus. today jes surf some work on the net. the jobstreeet. wow, suddenly feel tat hard to get a job from kl. i also no sure after i coming back to kl got work or not. hopefully got la. i saw all the job needs experience, at least 3 years. only this i already disqualified. coz for this filed i still fresh. if for working experience for this field still need more experience to learn. heart very struggle wanna coming bek or not. also first time work in kl. hopefully got lor. i also no so sure. erm, wanna find now also cannot la. coz wanna bek hometown first. after raya ba. erm..this nite last day stay in kl. also my last blog for tonite. after bek hometown cannot online lor..wanna be good boy in house haha. yeah,this time balik can swim wit friends lor,long time dint swim wit them...haha.so exiting now..but very sad my local uni friends they no holiday...haiz...anyway. hope we can meet soon la!!Good bye all!

Mission Accomplished

dun know y...today feel so happy, coz i pass all the subjects in the end. i no need take sup paper dy, haha. plus 3 months holiday..God really treat me so Good. now feel like no burden. wan eat then eat. wan to sleep then jes go to sleep, wan to play then go to play. wow, this life actually no much. if for the working person. but i still wan to give thank to God let me pass all the subject, even the super hard one, i also pass it..i very happy coz i never did the paper wit so confidence. this time,i answer the paper wit my confidence. actually i know my result dy,but still stay at here wait. but today my last result also released dy. i very happy see all pass it. everythime my cgpa always slight down,i think this time can slight up liao gua.haha. thing over here, tat mean i wan back to hometown dy. today already phone to my mum and told her dy. wow, long time really no meet my "si gui" friends at hometown, dun know they fat liao or slim liao. everytime i back to hometown wit rushing. rush back then rush back to kl again. i think this time i can stay longer a bit la, haha. think wanna take my guitar back coz my hoetown friend called me teach him but really no hand to take my guitar liao..haha.next time ba,this time teach u basic first. wow, rethink back, 3 week i focus on my exam,in the end i get the result. really feel is very good. i also wanna thank to my group mates accompany me study and always yum cha. haha...i also celebrate the moon cake festival when we study. suddenly very miss them, but they back to hometown jor. anyway, when i coming back will find u all yam cha liao la..haha. and also thank my lecturer, teach me so patiencely. thank u..i very happy..haha

日子开始的无聊~~

考完了试，大家开开心心的回家见家人，可是我呢? 没有他们那么的幸福。还是在这里留了一段时间。 其实这次的三个月给我是对的还是错的?一直以来，我都为自己的学业忙碌。 没有一次可以在家逗留很久。 可是现在突然要我听下来，说真的还有点不习惯。其实还蛮想读书的，至少可以看见自己的朋友们。 日子一天一天的过去。 现在在这里的人越来越少了。 其实就好像失去了"笑声"。 气氛也没了。 其实还蛮高兴在这里可以认识的朋友。 虽然不多，可是一两个已经满足了。 好啦，不写啦，希望今天的成绩可以出来了!!我真的不想在这样的等下去。。。

誤會~~

誤會這個東西很麻煩, 也將讓大家的感情變淡. 当误会加深后,就会乱去想..有时候误会也可以视为默误...还有时候,自己被人误会了,都不知道. 谁能去解决这样的问题? 既是解释,又怕他们不高兴, 不解释,他们就认为你一直对他们有偏见. 有时真的好矛盾. 我只是一个人. 一个很普通的人. 可是我就是一个在人家的眼中被误会的一样用具. 其实也不是第一次了啦,这种已经是很习惯了. 有时到的觉得朋友到底是什么? 友谊万岁? 讲义气? 互相帮助?还是朋友拿来出卖? 我真的很矛盾. 这些都很难去说.有时一一眼见面都会很讨厌对方. 有时朋友就没联络,感情也会这样的变淡. 如果真的想回去,有时真的一个好朋友都没有. 当朋友误会你时候,就说你对他不坦白. 当坦白说出来其实是这样,有怕她会生气. 是不是很好笑? 我真的不会怎样去安慰人. 我只想身边能够快快乐乐的. 我就是什么都不会,只会躲在这里写一些无聊BLOG的人. 我地切要想过,朋友参太多就会有跟多的纠纷.无论如何,一开始我就是错的. 有时候,我被搞到很难去面对大家. 我真的很辛苦,家里的负担那么大了,我还要面对其他的问题. 既然答应了爸爸我会扛起他所有的责任.我就要做到. 责任感很重要.可是有时候责任真的会让你感到有压力. 朋友们, 应豪其实就是一个和你们一样的普通人,只是大家的情况不同. 我要对一个死去的人说信用! 如果平时我真的让你们误会些什么,只希望你们不会真的去把我想到那么的坏. 有时我真不知道我的行为让你们误会什么,可是还要说声对不起. VERY SORRY ABOUT THIS. 我真的不晓得, 如果你不说,我也不知道. 别怪我不会开完笑什么,我说话就是很认真,严肃. 这也给大家一个尊敬. 如果我真在这里说错什么,要多多的包含. 也不要去责怪自己多管闲事什么的, 应豪从来没有责怪大家. 我只要说清楚我要的是关怀.信任. 不开心,当睡醒后,什么都忘记了. 我不会把它收在心里,因为这样会很辛苦的. 我希望在这里能得到大家的认同. 大家都不晓得以后会发生什么东东. 能珍惜现在的时光,是一种过程在存档进去你的脑里. 将来,以后,这些都会成为大家的回忆..

战争完毕~~

三个礼拜的战争终于都挂上了句号，大家都精疲力尽，带着不同的心情回家。个有个的计划。所以大家一考完，就回家去了!! 这次的考试非常的满意，成绩出完了。只是昨天考的还没有出而已。在这里，虽然人少了些，可是，在中秋节的气氛还有，昨晚还看到一些年轻人一起提灯笼呢。。可是老天不作美，既然下雨。 把地上所有的蜡烛都熄灭了。 虽然考完，可是我还有会留在这里，别人可是有亲人在家里等待他们。可是我呢? 我的生活在那里都是一样的。 回家不回家，对我来说，只是换一个环境而已!日子还是一样。 妈妈没空，在家我也是不知道做些什么好。一个人在家的感觉真好。 没有了考试，我的生活也开始改变了。昨晚和我的朋友去吃火锅。也算和他们庆祝了一个难忘的中秋节。好啦，考完就好。一切平安!

Moon Cake Festival

today is moon cake festival, also is my last paper for today. very exiting and also worry. exiting coz i wanna finish my exam already, worry is my last subjec super hard. moon cake festival seem here no ppl, only tat study ppl stay at here only,all already went back to hometown. haha,i think today after i exam and back to home and wanna shout "i finish lor", but house pplalready gone. this morning jes celebrated moon cake festival with my group mates. although simple however meaningful. seem i wanna passing a alone moon cake festival tonite. anyway, after i finish my exam jes say. now still havent finish yet. after exam,i really lost direction. dun know wat i can do in 3 months,anyway back to hometown first and see. ya,happy moon cake festival for all!

最后的一科，很难读，很难过。。

终于，这是我的一百个日记，非常的快，平时一直写，一直的写。 可是我不曾看回我所写的东西。 人始终还是要往前看。不能只是停留在一个回忆当中。可是我本身又很想找一天看回我所写的东西。。。终于我都打开最后一科的NOTES。。最后一科还要考法律。。我还蛮大压力的。当我翻开NOTES时。 我的确很乱。 因为太多了! 真的有一点当心我会FAIL最后的一科。我真的好累，可是又能怎样? 终于成绩也出了。 可是还没出完。等等吧。 看来大家都回家了吧? 我还是要留在这里过一个孤单的生活。 3个月的假期要开始了! 非常期待， 可是又觉得很浪费时间。 真的很想在这个三个月内做我想做的东西。其实，每一次，我都会用日记来表达我自己的心情。快乐，悲伤。。如果没有甜酸苦辣。做人还有什么意义。啊，明天礼拜天，该是我第一天在教会SERVE 吧。 可是大家都回家了，应该很少人。现在我好大压力压!最后的一科好难。。。我没有把握。

不开心

今天的心情，的确不开心。 很累不想写。。。。。。。。。。。

累~

已经是最后第二科了，感觉上越来越累~~~什么时候我才可以完成我这两科? 下个礼拜~~?我就是最后一个庆祝的人~~可是那时候，只有我一个人在庆祝而已吧~~朋友们都上云顶去了!!他们的计划都安排到好好!!只是在等候时间的到来。我就没有什么伟大的计划要实行啦。。。只想考完试就拿一天来睡觉。。是不是很简单呢? 最近真的好好累，如果能把时间停下来然后拿来睡觉的话有多好。。希望这样的生活可以快快的过去。。别再来了。。

作战时期

在作战的时期，兵士们最想有一个很好的觉睡，可是在他们的心中，偏偏就有一个恐惧，他们怕敌方的军士会暗算他们。 所以，每个军士都会时时刻刻都提起警惕! 考试也是这样，考试期中，真的没有一个好睡的时间，担心这个，担心那个。大家都希望这个战争会很快的结束。 可以会家看看自己的亲人。 最近的我地切没有什么睡觉。没一次都是在自己的书台上睡觉。没有一个很好的姿势。 没有办法，谁叫我非常注重这次的考试。 我不能在让自己的成绩在跌了!!是时候我要把它拉上来。 学生，就是考好成绩!! 我不想以后成为我的遗憾。 看看日历，我真的好久好久没回家了! 虽然现在在不同的地方，可是心早已经在想念我的亲人。 要中秋节了，可是看来还是自己一个人庆祝把!!很想玩灯笼也，玩蜡烛。 如果在这里提灯笼，会不会被人笑呀?也大就也怀念童年的生活，怪不得老人家在年老是都会作出很幼稚的行为。可是在他们看来，他们真的真的非常怀念这种感觉。。。钱可以赚回来，可是时光，回忆。。有钱都得不到。。。。

我失眠了。。。

怎么啦? 为什么到现在还不能睡? 不是说好要12点睡觉，然后五点半起来再都过的吗??可是我在床上翻来翻去，不能入睡。。。看来我一就是现在睡，不然就不要睡了!!五点半怎样都要读书!!那是我最后的冲刺!不管了!!又上帝安排吧!!

Battle !

the time still wanna coming, no body can run out this circle. yeah...take ur sword and ur shield, wear up ur amor and prepare for fight! we no jes fight for our self, we also fight for Glory. long time we prepared our self, now is the time we stand up and fight! no matter how strong of enemy, no matter how strong of the defender. we only can fight! this is our way. as a warrior, we must be brave we cannot worry, we cannot nervous, we cannot be weaker. fight jes only one way we go! no give up in our mind. the real meaning for "strong" no mean one person! tat is whole the team! team work will be more stronger than one who very strong! Fight! no chance! fight! to stop the war ! fight! for the last winner!!!

tuesday morning

3:14am now, but i havent sleep, feeling sleepy actually maybe after this blog i will go to sleep lo. i like to write blog at this time. very quite no body will kacau...latelly all busy for exam. all not stay in house. jes few of us stay here and study. wanna go to my friend house study,sometime feel very lazy. so jes study my self lor..haiz plus MTI coming, i think next week will be less people in the house. i cannot do anything during MTI, coz of the exam. i kena say tata to MTI. after this MTI, all will back to hometown jor. for me? haha, got house like no house, wanna back dun wan back also nevermind one. actually also no idea. if i really go back,then will be hard to come back to kl again liao lor. 3 months, actually very fast one la.12 weeks only ma. still dun know after exam jes think. still got 2 days wanna strat my exam lo. very sad is my exam need 3 weeks. but after this 3 months break, aiya apa pun ambil balik liao la. wish my lecturer really got job for me tat time. hrm....also many ppl birthday in september, but coz of exam. we jes simple celebrate it. haiz,turn to exam. gambate all la. my coughing still havent be good. when this time my cough will getting serious. well, jes fine...kl nite very nice...hometown really cannot see it. dun know y, heart feel a lot of burdens. sometime, really feel tired, wanna rest. people always say: good rest is for future long journey...Be a man, really not so easy! He must take all the burdens and responsibility. whatever how big the burden. He also need to sustain for it. not jes talk,but need to action. maybe u will say me "da nan ren" , but for me, responsibility very important to me. this what my father teached me. well, now i jes 22, still have long journey need to walk. watever how my life will become worst or what, i still wanna walk thru and breakthrough all this. coz i'm MAN. from here also wish my roommate happy birthday!! althogh ppl less a bit, but we still appreciate our brothers relationship! hard we will know each other from different hometown. Thank God for creation this beautiful relation. we really really appreciate it!