Iron Man~~

Today jes finished my 3th paper, waiting the last paper coming on this friday...feeling very exited coz i wanna finish my exam dy haha, jes back from the one utama, really hard to e book the ticket, so jes went there to buy, 1 utama got 2 cinema, tgv and gsc..but gsc one a lot of ppl, so we jes bought the tgv one lo...reached there get 11pm show..then went there lepak lepak, ate amw...hehe..today 1 utama got the fashion competition..a lot of ppl there ler..bek to the iron man show, damn nice..i think long time i dint said any movie nice liao...very good go to see, really one..after u see u will amaze to the technology...jes bath and sit here writing blog liao, damn tired, jes now slept in the car..haha..really too tired..after exam i think i need sleep witout set time..tat great..but hard lo..always said like tat, but tat time coming, sure no sleep,lepak whole day one..haha...

New Blog For Little Cow

yeah...finally i used 3 days to move my all blogs from friendster to here..134 posts...wao..i tot one day can settle where know i need use 3 days =.=, really tired..the reason i move to here, coz friendster really no much function let me play, although now my blog jes released, but will promise u all i will add in more functions here. 134 posts, i got read some..really make me remember something hehe, i can see from last time until now a day punya today..sad,happiness all inside..actually i got remove a lot of part during i and my gf moments...but now i jes hope i able to reserve all this old posts..haha...thanks for my fans wor..come here support me..next time my blog will post here already, no more in friendster!! remember liao lo!!! erm...my housemates getting less ler..coz all balik kampung jor..me still wnna suffer until this friday..but nevermind la...finish my exam fisrt jes plan all my thing..this period no much study la, jes have a look for all the thing...i only aim pass nia ma...so no much stress like them..jes hope i can pass all,i happy jor..i no a tamak ppl..wakakak..

Wong Kok

Today, celebrated birthday with my friend in pj wong kok, took few hours jes reached there coz sesat..wakakaka...but in the end still reach there, very dam hungry, and order and rice, and drink..very full to eat there, dun know y, or i ate b4 i go? damn tired for today..woke up at 4am..then exam..reach home take nap only few hours..then celebrated birthday wit friend..somemore sesat go untiil subang..lol..after that nite...now actually my energy damn damn low...hope later i have a good rest and sleep kao kao eh!! God bless me kao kao!! wakakak!

nice boh?

today put some pic let u all see see, this two pic were my friend sent to me when he at the look up point...this place i only went to one time only, buy we able see through all the kl..very nice oo...last time we use hp took the pic, but no so cantik..this time..this snaped wit very rite view and very nice..from here..we can see all the kl..we called this place small genting also la, suitable for tat dating dating one...although came kl almost 2 years, however i never saw the nite view in kl lo..this time i alble to see it..really memorable..i hope i able to go there again..but no now la..haha, maybe wait me got car already then jes go la!! recommended to those couple lo!! haha!

Jusco Gift

wao, yesterday i received a lot of coupons from jj, got nando la, kenny rosters la, all eat one...haha, but all like very expensive one..haha, dun blame me ma..ppl wan save money...very poor lo..wat i doing latelly, very gao gao, burn the next paper burn until so suffer, then went out play ps with friend...sian..lazy to memo, should say impossible to memo, need to understand it..quite suffer, coz no mood to study at all...somemore think about go where to lepak after the exam..haha. latelly i quite long no play my guitar...jes put over there. sumtime take out my lao ya harmonica to play..after exam, really wanna find my lecturer call him repair my harmonica...haiyo...latelly nothing happen la..jes exam nia..finish on 2/5, yeah..hope no resit paper for this time la..wei aka, tian shi jie jie wer..haha..got any gift wanna give me boh? tian shi jie jie should give me bit bit give..i no so greed la. i wan my parent all be fine can liao..no so greed rite..hehe

Fat Man

wao...dun know y, i always think tat those fat guys they all very nice to chat..their very active..and still know how to joke...last time i am tat kind person...but after keep fit..very naturally u will come out one anger in the heart..izzit..some time when u get, u also need to sacrified some thing? wao..tomolo exam eh..actually nothing to scare one, but dun know the atmospheara makes like very kan chiong..but nevermind la...jes do it like usual..yesterday mama called me, talked very long also...sunday sunday..later got serve.. very funny i tot today i no serve..but God bless open my physical eyes see clearly the usher list..if not..wakakak...erm..wake up jor..wat to do? study bah..hehe ^^

stamina getting low...

sista, know u curi tengok la...go study! aiyo...ppl getting older and older, energy also getting decrease..jes play badminton wit friends..they are young..all full of energy..me? play few games then need to take a rest. 2 hours actually enuff for me dy..now..wanna admit old also cannot lor now.. everything must follow the age..cannot push our self too over like b4 dy..last time? call me play still full of energy..wow, went to there released some stress good also eh..excersice really can make ppl release the stress..especially that kind of hard one..really make u release a lot of energy..after bath..the feeling very nice..but the next day..ur body will very siok...wakka..i also dun know wat i talking about...blek..exam getting close and close..no much study lo..tell u honestly..dun know latelly my up stairs renovating or wat...morning morning so noise..make me cannot sleep well..aiyo..hope tat the thing can end soon. the feeling very good, saturday still wanna go realease release again! wakakakaka! bibi

Alex, study week jor eh!!

hai yo, tis year, i become lazier, a lot of class i dint attend also...issit, final year student always like tat? coz final year, really getting less and less thing to study..most of the times jes focus on our final year project..after submmited the fyp, the time will getting free than b4..nothing to do dy, this week is utar study week jor, a lot of my friends and utar friends started to be hardworking, included me also la..hehe. it can see the msn a lot of ppl put the title, exam, exam, exam...maybe this is the exam season..all reload their bullet liao,i think.. this exam, for me really enjoy, i dun know y? only 4 sub..the tips give to us very obvious.. but also need to study la, got tips no study how can...i like tis time exam...hehe, jes very like, no reason lo...see, april coming dy, jes rethink bek, promise my hometown friends will meet them in may while the chinese new year..time pass fast..next month i able to meet them dy..hehe.but after i come bek to kl again, i think i less to bek to hometown jor, if my industrial training in kl, then after the last sem, i have to go traning immediatelly jor.. now i dint find any company, i think i jes depend utar find for me..lecturer encouraged us take master, but for me..my education limitation jes able reach until this level..the final year, i will more appreaciate my gathering wit my classmates, coz after v graduate, i think most of the time, v jes focus on work...anyway..jes surrender to God, depend He wan to send me to where..wakaka..all say amen!

my harmonica

final year, actually i really hope all our cg able to lead by the guitar..i really hope i able take out my harmonica at the cg..but i think this chance =0%. long time i dint play my harmonica dy.very miss it..exam coming soon, God always Good, i hope i able do all the best in my exam. let God arrange my path to me. thanks Lord..

long time dint write blog..

getting lazy to write dy, dun know y..jes now do a thing, i dun know is i wrong or rite, i jes rejected a girl she told her feeling to me. am i make a rite decision? so sorry i really cannot promise anything to her. i dun wan be the burden to her also..i know wat the situation now i am, i wan take care my self hard also, then how to take care to her again ler. better be the friend rite, wish her able get the better than me one la...i feel good now, i busy my study, my church, my houseworks. wat i wan to achieve now is my successful career. other thing, dun wan to think yet la..

out look point

yesterday i went pavillion to watch 10,000 BC...actually the movie quite bored...the ending like nothing special..after that we went to out look point where located at upper hill, ampang there. very nice that place,i can view all the kl nite on the top. better than we sit the eye on malaysia. we had a dinner on the top and view the kl nite, the life very beautiful. a lot of couple like to come here have their candle light. but food there very expensive la. anyway cannot get the good camera take the picture, but very nice i able see the kl nite..really memoryful!!

Taman Pertanian

finally, i submited my final year project 1, wow i started busy since i bek from the chinese new year till now. every nite could not sleep well. ot plus ot... but now, jes feel like a bit free coz i completed jor. yesterday went to taman pertanian, shah alam there cycling..actually quite long i dint touch bike, so yesterday got the bike, i use all my energy to go every where. actualy this also a way to release my tension. quite song...when stress, do some execise which able exhaut ur energy one, very nice. tired, but memory.

happy valentine?

life changed bek to usual, chinese new year already passed few days ago. went bek to kl and started my busy life. when i bek to homwtown, wat i like is all my steps will automatically slow down. and relax in hometown. anything no need too rush. so, in my house, i able sleep until very late, but in kl, only few hours i can sleep then automatically i will wake up. this year is my last year, also is my busy year. wat i very worry is my final year project. seem a lot of thing i need to plan, but time not alow me plan too long. anyway, so far i finish 2 assignments already then next week will be my last week to rush my project. soon, this week will be my week six of the lectures, few weeks need to go again to my final exam. today is velentine's day. for the single, i only accompany my assignment and celebrate the valentine's day. in my mind now, i only hope i really can finish my project, finish it....

Hard to Breath~~

week 1 , we get all the assignments already. wow feel stress. all the assignments need a lot time to do. plus my FYP. my FYP need to summit in week8 that mean next month i need summit dy. i still shaking leg again. finally i use the morning time to finish my project 1 planning and need to let my supervior comment it. but still wannathank hai chuan provide me that fyp info, i jes able plan my project properly. hope my supervisor satisfy it what i planning!

B-15-6 Brothers Revive

after passing 2 weeks witout internet life, our brothers felt desperated dy. but yesterday internet came, all jes like a rise from sleep, youtube, downloading, all come...included me also la,haha.. finally i able doing my thesis at this time and uploading something dy. my life turn bek student life. although time flexible however still have a lot of assignments need to do. plus latelly my house all exam, moving house. ktar wanna long holiday lol. my house will getting less ppl. anyway in the new year. i jes hope this year i able complete my degree and gratuade it!

2008

finally bek from homwtown dy, but wangsa maju here have a bit boring ler...the life jes like nothing to do...oh my gosh..my home no internet..luckily got smart phone.. able to online.. fianally my life turn to student life dy.this year will be my busy year and also my final year...i hope alll my thing will smooth dun have any problem to happen, let me graduate it ok? house geting queit..all the ppl busy around. i think too early i bek... should stay lonnger a bit at hometown !! swat!

Over~~

wow, finally all are over, work over, christmas also same, now the life like throw out all the burdens, but dun be so satisfy yet! even every days is the christmas day! so, we cannot stop it...tomolo going back hometown lor, bek and take the rest, busy so long now can break and rest haha, so nice, the new year coming soon. i hope next year will be a great year for me! God can bless me every thing! i dun know how is it but i will be a strong person and Glorify His name!!

working vs study

Now i jes realise tat working ppl cannot spend more time very study ppl. working ppl need rest more, they need sleep early, cannot stay too late ...like wat the joseph said working life, jes like tat, i even cannot take more time wit them, even yam cha also wanna wait until friday or saturday.. actually i quite tired latelly. i really need refreshing ... actually who only can support ur self only one person,TATis Lord, even bro or sister they also got their own pro. cannot support u always. jesus U really r my bst friend1! everydau i wake up wit joyful! every day is great day! even the birds U also give them food to eat!! dun complaint so much! jes do it! thank Lord.

Open the eye of my hear Lord

jes now sang this song in the house prayer. although this song we sang many times b4, however, we still feel tat the song very nice and meaning full. this week will be my last week working, after tat wanna say good bye to my lovely collegues. today went to jj buy a chocalate plan to bless them. thank for them this few months for teaching me. Lord, trat me so good. dun know y, his presence already touching me. sadness, happyness always make ppl down or up. i be happy have U Lord. anyway, is the time wanna go bek to hometown dy. and prepare my new sem....

trust the God heartely

this month i choose working. in this month i learn tat, God more important in my life. after work, always morning wake up and come bek evening, life always be the same, even job also never change. human life very boring, when they lose purpose, but this world still gota thing called "money". so, this thing able to motivate them every day. for me, i feel better than them. coz i still got another thing again, and not only the money, this is my Lord. everyday i wake up from the bed, i really miss my housemate they can sleep until late late, every morning i give thank to the Lord, coz today is a great day for me although tired, i still give thank to Him. in the christian life i learn how i trust Him heartelly. nothing can compare wit Him. happy, unhappy, the life still keep continue. Lord, Lord.. i know tat, be a christian not only u wash out our sin and we get blessing. while we accept u as our saviour, tat moment we started pick up the heavy cross and walk wit u. Lord, i know tat the the way full of obstacles and challeges. be a christian i need to take the cross, never let U alone. i belive tat, i will get a lot of blessing from U. so, i choose to walk wit u. Lord take me ..thanks Lord!

Recording~~

now i reliase tat, recording is the most difficult thing to me...after my voice transfer to the mic or phone, then voice totally different dy. record many time, and listen back my voice, feel tat actually no any improve, still like tat. actually i also no idea how can make my voice be more stable. christmas coming soon. fast we have to celebrate new year dy.suddenly my mind need to rest it. refresh me k? in Jesus name i pray

on the way to Kingdom

seem long long time i dint touch my blog, sure la, working life totally different wit study life, the freedom already bind it, no every i will free. student good la, wan sleep anytime also can, wan wake up any time also can. but working life ler. haih...alway lay on the bed find many reason dun wan go to work, but finally still kump up and go.. this life make me very tired. but nevermind still got 3 weeks. than i free. i like tat time i bek. dun know y i very appreciate that 5hours in the house. i also appreciate saturday and sunday. the life different already. seldom meet my friends, any big news i also dun know. life going stagnate wat should i do? but i still be strong and face the 3 weeks... coz i live wit Him!! yeah

2 weeks gone

when started my working life, i realise tat, actually my life actually nothing, morning wake up early, take lrt, then work until 6pm, then take lrt again bek to here, then rest a while then go to bed b4 12am. every time repeat repeat. sometime i will feel like nothing, time always rob my self, be a student good, wanna do then do, wanna play then play, last time dun realise tat feeling, always think wanna working soon. my friends, always said assignment sian ar, but sometime i feel tat, assignment better then work. work if got anything wrong, u will get scold by boss, plus working, cannot spend more time wit friends, i feel tat, now friends became more and more far than me, i cannot get wat they think currently. friends always called yamcha, but sure i rejected. coz i scare tomolo i cannot get good enough energy to work. working ppl work suffer, on the other hand, they also big spend in their life, they need a lot of materials to fulfill their boring life. erm, actually dun see me always seat office very siok, actually quite tired, 8hours i do nothing, coz of the money, so always be strong to face it, time pass like tat, i dun know every i canot do wat again. but i still got few week need to go again, i think i will stop b4 christmas la. at least this sem i got work to do. then after christmas then balik kampung ,haha....

Deepavali

actually jes came bek from church, just had a great prayer in the church. deepavali can cuti a day, also let me rechrage my energy. always like tat, until now also dun wan go to bed. say i tired? looks no..issit latelly i train until can tahan dy? every day sit 8 hours office. now prayer like nothing, also no felt tired or wat. finally companny offer me to another level position. tat is head hunter. but this position, need to achieve their target, if not, in the end quite stress. they also wan the part time hunter, so even now u study they also can let u try it. but for me really no interest la, coz this position like wanna cheat ppl one, coz we need to find out the competitor details. so we have to use different technic to get the information from the competitor then to our client. plus i will not longer be there. so, still consider reject their offer. but my data entry look almost finish. around 10days i think i able to finish it, my speed able to break the record for tat company, so i choose make it slowly. dun be fast sometime. well today deepavali, i think shloud stay in house tidy up my things, nite find friend eat gua. working life should be continue it, actually my job already simple and good pay. hope tat i able to work until next month. if not haha...balik kampung again lor...

the time of working is most tired for me~~

every day i think i wanna to graduate soon and working, now this already make a reality for me? although this is temporary, however, i already realised it work more suffer than study. after a week i working in office as an admin. i already felt very very bored there. coz 8hours i only sit there, and only my fingers move, whole body nothing to move. i cannot sit there longly person. so every time i hope finish my work soon. my work also bored until i dun know how to say. for me wanna get a suitable job for our self very hard. every time, we like binding by the time, cannot control it jes let it control.last day had lunch with my collegue, from they heart i knew that they aso work under the stress, although saturday and sunday is the holiday, howerver, in their life, every hours also is they working hour. coz sometime their client only free in the weekend, so, they really need to sacrify their time to meet their client.after a week i realised tt, kl ppl doing everything also fast, even eating, they also very fast. look like cannot get slow. they told me, if u get slow, u will be disdominate, so when younger, really need to work hard. for me, izzit we need fast? i scare one day we fast until the end we get nothing, but life here is like tat. u cannot be slow, even take LRT also need fast and push. if not, u always behind ppl. always face all the OL..me also feel nthing. having lunch most of time alone. but only temporary. if long term staying there, i think i really cannot tahan it....

working life started...

b4 coming bek to kl, always worrried about hard to get the job, but never expects so fast only bek to here a day then start to work dy. telling God,my needs, always kacau God to give me work. now He really give me a good payment work, for me is ok liao la, as long as i get job, can spend my free time, get income then no problem. actually tat day in my mind really no interesting for this. coz i search the work all the night, jes start wan to sleep at 7am till 9am like tat, they called me dy. tat time i really dun wan to go, but got a strong energy push me go, plus i also appoint liao my lecturer wanna accompany him go to site visit. but tat day dun know y, i really go to change my shirt and go to work, i also dun know y? on the way to work, i already wanna tell lecturer i may no go, but the lecturer automatic sms me and told me site visit postpone.. wao.. this time everthing settle. i jes put all my heart go to see the job. in very funny situation, i get into it and started work. collegues all very good, after they teach me jes let me at there do my things, izzit first day got this offer or wat, after a while jes know all of us is came from son of God, may be our religion are same, so we able talk wit happly. in company, jes heard jesus name, still tell me after work and get the salary ,remember put ur 10% offering oh..wakaka..so far for me ok la, every people good. i also hope i able to spend more time wit them again..

在家的最后几个小时:

“环境真的可以改变一个人” ，如果要改变环境，就要看看那个人有多大的能力。回来这里足足三个礼拜了。终于等下就要离开这里，重返kl在继续我的事情了。虽然现在还是我的假期，可是那边始终有事情做，还是要回去的。这次回来最重要还是看爸爸妈妈。爸爸还是这样，装在玻璃箱子里面。妈妈呢，见面时间很少，应为她要工作。所以能见面的时间就是她放工回来和周末没有工作的时间。家里就是我一个人在那边看电视，和等妈妈的回来。这三年我到外面去读书，注定就是和父母分开一段时间。我到kl，至少还有朋友的照顾，可是妈妈一个人在家，有时候还很担心。这个就是我的命吗? 时间，很仁慈，但是有时候很残忍。钱虽然重要，可是亲人更重要。其实这次回来家里三个礼拜，现在的心真的很不想回kl，很难得我有三个月的假期，可是在这里，又没事做。心里真的很挣扎。到底我要些什么呢? 有时候，更本就没有答案，何必一直要找出答案? 孩子，在每个父母中，都是幸福的。在家好吃好睡，何必回去呢? 可是看到妈妈那么的辛苦工作，而自己就无所事事的呆在家。蛮无聊，所以无论如何，今天我要踏回kl。在继续我忙碌的生活。这次回来呢，也和朋友们玩得很开心，可是时间很有限。大家相聚时间很少。今天学妹打给我，越明晚见面，可是明天我都回家了，何见? 从电话中知道她没有再继续她的学业了。我没有说什么，对我来说，以前我也是这样的想法，可是现在呢? 对我来说乘年青时能读就读，不然什么都不会，就会被这个社会淘汰。其实我很讨厌回家的那个路程，不管来还是回，那段时间是我最讨厌的，如果kl在我隔壁有多好呢? 2007 年也会完了，下次回来有可能是要2008年了吧? 无论如何还是有喜有悲，喜就是我可以再看到我的朋友们了，悲呢，心里还蛮担心母亲。生活还是在继续，这个三个礼拜，共写了十多篇日记。不知道为什么，就很想把这个时刻的感想记下来，变成了自己的回忆。。。。。。。

旧照片:

刚刚翻起了旧照片来看，从我爸和我妈认识然后结婚，生了我的过程。看着自己在照片中一直长大的我，已经不是以前那么可爱的小孩子了。现在可是一个不管做某种事情都要负责任的大人了。没有人会在保护你，而是要反过来保护自己的亲人。有很多事，不是在一边哭，就可以解决，反而，要勇敢的面对。我已经不是当年天天都带着笑容的那个男孩了，而是一个满天心事的大人，我在也不是一个只是会玩的小孩了。反是都要以正经事为重。我再也不是当年的脆弱男孩了，无论现在多么的脆弱，还是要爬起来向前走。我已经不是以前那个一直依赖人的小孩了，而现在什么事都要亲历亲为。无论如何，我只想告诉大家，我已经长大了。我已经不是当年的一个小孩。。。。。

心事:

每个人都有自己的心事，有时要找一个知己来分享，可是很难找。跟他说，有时他都不明白我们的状况。所以人人常说，人生得一知己，死于无憾。在我爸爸一去世后，自己的心事也慢慢的增加，虽然有些可以自己解决，可是有些真的不说就可以解决。其实一直以来，我都很想毕业，虽然听起来很普通，可是这个真真是我最大的一劫。我非常的担心自己毕不到业。原因不是成绩不好，而是自己的financial 出现了一些问题。一直以来，我都自己安慰自己，没事的，这是最后一年的问题，现在都还没到，无论我怎样逃避，事实依然是存在。总有一天我还是要面对这个问题。2008年就是我最后大学的一年，也是一个非常时期。能不能毕业，真的就是看这一年了。现在的我慢慢的踏入最后一年，其实我也是评着见步走步一直走下去。可是到最后我真的会有点问题。其实我出声，亲戚是有的，可是我实在欠他们太多了，就当我爱面子吧。以现在看来，其实学费应该没有问题，可是如果我的load要cover我的学费和生活费，就有点问题，我只能cover在一个方面，有学费就没有生活费，有生活费就没有学费。怎样好呢? 到了现在，我还是抱着见步走步而走。希望这一劫我真的可以熬过。最后一年了。是时候面对自己的问题了。。。。

早上的星期四:

啊，回来这里也两个礼拜了，下个礼拜我就要回去了。回来这里的目的就是charge一下自己，这个拜六做好律师的东西和换了roadtax应该没什么了，这次下去还有点紧张，因为不曾在kl工作，还是第一次在那么远做工。希望这次是顺顺当当的没有什么事情发生。刚刚收拾我的房间，发现有一袋东西在我的房间里，开来看过后，完全都是以前我和笔友们来的信，打开来一边的读，发现自己以前是那么的会关心人，所以他们喜欢和我交朋友。可是不知道什么时候开始，我已经不会怎样的去关心别人了，反而我需要朋友的关心。我变了吗? 很多东西每天都在周围里一直的变，是否自己也是受到周围的影响而改变了自己? 什么在改变呢? 思想?? 变成熟了? 还是? 以前在我做工的时间，天天都觉得自己的经验比学业更重要，我认为读书只是在浪费自己的时间。每次我都会跟我学妹说不必读那么多，可是现在，我反而觉得学业还蛮重要，乘自己年轻的时候该读点书，要是以后才要读就慢了。看到自己的学妹开始要放弃学业真的有点心酸。希望她不要后悔她所做的一切。

欢乐的时光:

终于欢乐的时光又要到了一个结尾。朋友明天也回了，他们也要开学了。我们朋友在一起的时间真的很少，不像以前那样，中学时候，天天都见面。刚才出来喝茶时，大家都说起中学的趣事。说真的我们真的很难得回来才短短几个礼拜，其实，我我的心理有时还蛮挣扎，这里有我的亲人和朋友， kl也还有一般很难得的好朋友。其实我还蛮喜欢他们，可是有时回到了kill，就少了和家乡的朋友在一起的时间，还有少了时间在家里陪妈妈。妈妈每次做工，一个礼拜说真的只有一天的休息，很难得大家在家里。朋友们也是，可是在这里呢，我又很想念我kill的朋友。这几年会较多的参他们。其实这次回去，大家都叫我在圣诞节开party，通常在这边,organiser就是我，因为我在这里算最闲的了，大家要工作。现在的生活，就是kill和吉打两边走。当我毕业时，到底我会在那里呢? 出来欠政府前，还要养妈妈，要买车，屋子呢? 吃呢? 老婆呢? 孩子呢? 样样都是钱。可以想象得到，爸爸以前是多么的辛苦，氦。。。我爱我的朋友，妈妈。。还有爸爸。。现在什么能让我做呢? 尽量照顾自己别让自己被伤到和被你伤害的人。

很逼真的梦:

当一个人躺在地上和一边听音乐时，突然会在一种清醒的情况下发梦，非常的真，可是有不敢相信，突然整个人会从梦中跳起来。原来自己在发白日梦。今天电视机出院了，家里还算增加了一个娱乐的东西。明天和朋友出去玩，希望在这几天可以珍惜一下大家的友谊。

想念爸爸:

回来这里也一个礼拜了，每天在家里呆着，有时会想起爸爸。以前晚上大家都会聚在一起，在一间家里，爸爸放工了，就会帮妈妈在后面剪布，而妈妈就在车衣，而我放工过后就会做在客厅看电视，虽然每天都是这样的过，最重要的还是大家在一起。现在爸爸已经不在了，而妈妈要在外打工而养这个家。家里的那种气氛已经消失了很久，整间家，就是我一个人在家，非常的安静。有时看着爸爸去世的地方，心理还是有点酸酸。爸爸做的椅子，爸爸的机车，爸爸修理的电器，我都保管起来，妈妈每次叫我丢了它，机车拿去卖了它，可是我都不舍得拿去卖和丢掉。因为这些都是唯一我可以保管的东西，爸爸的机车好久都没有走了，听了好久。我都不想拿去卖了它，生前时，爸爸很喜欢他的机车，是我和他一起去选的，虽然是二手车，可是它对我来说有多大的意义。其实我很爱这个家，虽然不是什么富贵的家庭。可是爸爸都会爱这个家。可是平时的生活我们缺乏了沟通，在我懂事开始，大家的沟通少了，大家有秘密就是不说出来。知道后也是太迟了。真的很想让妈妈休息了，让她去玩，去享受。时间也过得很快，回来这里已经一个礼拜了。刚刚和朋友打球回来。说真的，好久没有动我的球拍了。也快生锈了。打完了球，和朋友去喝两杯。 LOCAL U 他们也放假了。都回来了，和他们聚了一聚。很快的，UTAR又要开学了。我朋友这个礼拜又要回去了。可是还没有和他们游到泳呢，泳裤都带回去了，可是还没有用到呀。这几天都和朋友有一连串的活动，他要回了麻。不玩，我们真的要等到新年了。岁月不留人，什么已经不重要了，最重要的珍惜身边的每一个人。

可怜的家:

今天电视机坏了，终于发觉到家里好多东西都开始坏了，可是不敢修理，等下没钱就不好啦。有些呢，快要坏了，所以现在很小心的用。没办法，现在是非常时期。万一有什么问题就惨了。很想快快毕业也!! 好久喔。。。家里的东西，能自己修理就尽量自己来吧，如果真的不能才打算。真的要很小心的用。最近好像养成不好的习惯了，到了早上才要去睡觉，都不知道自己在做些什么。现在家里没有电视看，只有看这没有的上网的电脑。还觉得蛮闷的，可是没办法拉。忍一下吧。快要四点了，可是还不想睡，怎么办好? 看样子现在还不能会kl。还有好多的事还没有做，还以为回来没事做，看来还需要待多一阵子才可以回来了啦。。。。

星期日:

刚刚睡醒，昨天和一大班的朋友们喝茶，好久没有那么看到那么多人了，全都来，真给面子。始终，还有一个比较多废话的朋友，如果没有他，就没有那个气氛了，哈哈。本来打算周末大家一起去玩，可是大家都有节目。只好约他们过几天打羽球，和游泳。好啦，今天没什么要写的，要忙自己的去!! 再见!!

Day 2 in the house:

Today nothing special happen, stay in the house whole day and eat, drink, sleep. Life so enjoy. Long time din have this life already. Always busy and busy. Sometime we stop it and see, we will see a lot of wonderful things around us. But we only busy always. So we can’t get the wonderful things around us. Stay in house tiding my things. And checking all the house expenses and income. Make it simple to mum. Today I jest realize that a lot of things in the house already broken. Need to fix it. But all this things need some money lo. Still cannot repair all this things. How ler? Wat can I do? Nothing lo, jest use it with careful. Jest now received a called from my friend. Great to hear his voice. Very exiting now coz tomolo will meet my friends. Long time dint see them, dun know they become fat, slim, or what. Stay in house very boring, but in the contrast I really can take this opportunity to refresh my mind and my body, no internet here. although cause me inconvenience. However still feel tat good also, no ppl will kacau u. like u stay at the outside without any telecommunication. Now listen the music and reading some book. Jes now friend asked me wanna go to
Singaporeor not when hari raya. Haiz, I really long time no go to travel lor. Very miss travel. If now I got a lot of money, I sure go here go there. Ok la, nothing special today. Plus nothing to do, so jes writing some wu liao blog la, haha….ya, tomolo wanna going to visit my father. Tat day 1 year he pass away I no go back, coz exam season, now back liao,tomolo wanna go to see see him. !

回家的第一天:

终于到家了，虽然没有得上网写blog，可是还是offline写了，等我回到kl在把全部post上去。今天真倒霉，不知道为什么每次回家都会遇到倒霉的事情发生。有时感觉到回家也还蛮累的。因为如果只要一不小心，可能要半天才可以回到家。今天呢，到了PUDURAYA，那里知道今天的巴士那么的准时，平时都没有那么的准时，竟然跑掉了! 害的我在那边傻傻的等待，最后人家和我说才知道巴士走了，结果呢，上去COUNTER 那边和他们谈判。还说我迟到什么的，大叔，拜托，我早早就到了，还和你拿了bus number才下去，完全没有看到那辆巴士，硬说我迟到! 真讨厌。结果呢最后还好有一辆巴士专收我们这些无巴士可归的人。可是他们只是去北海，没办法啦，巴士走了，现在不坐，就没什么巴士了。只好乖乖的听他们的话，上了那辆巴士。果然是收那些没有巴士可归的人，在巴士内等了要一个小时多，要等到满人为止才甘愿开车! 真欠打! 终于开车了! 不知道那个司机的尿特别的多，天天都停! 搞到我早上回到了北海已经是五点多了!! 坐到我全身酸痛。到了北海，还要等巴士回局林。下了巴士既然给我看到 RAPID KL可是不是叫rapid kl 啦，既然叫 rapid penang哈哈，还有那边的人开始要想在那些每次站在puduraya那些人那么的热情了! 从外面问到里面! 很不耐烦的说，很想两粒给他! 等了一个小时多才可以回到家，回到家终于累倒不像样，睡去了! 最后还是到家了，看到以前的东西，也想起了以前的梦想，可是最后选择了来kl读书，放弃了好多的东西，人是回来了，可是这里什么都没变，还是这样的老样子，可是人呢，变了好多。希望这次的回来可以和朋友们玩久一点。。。。

Day b4 bek hometown~~

wow, tomolo balik kampung, now taking a decision dun wan to sleep tonite. but dun know i can tahan whole nite or not. very happy coz i really miss my hometown friends they all, i already sms them gather them saturday nite yam cha liao,wakka, bo huat la,all big boss need get early appointment first. all the thing already pack, wow,better got a friend accompany me balik. if not sure boring while in the bus. today jes surf some work on the net. the jobstreeet. wow, suddenly feel tat hard to get a job from kl. i also no sure after i coming back to kl got work or not. hopefully got la. i saw all the job needs experience, at least 3 years. only this i already disqualified. coz for this filed i still fresh. if for working experience for this field still need more experience to learn. heart very struggle wanna coming bek or not. also first time work in kl. hopefully got lor. i also no so sure. erm, wanna find now also cannot la. coz wanna bek hometown first. after raya ba. erm..this nite last day stay in kl. also my last blog for tonite. after bek hometown cannot online lor..wanna be good boy in house haha. yeah,this time balik can swim wit friends lor,long time dint swim wit them...haha.so exiting now..but very sad my local uni friends they no holiday...haiz...anyway. hope we can meet soon la!!Good bye all!

Mission Accomplished

dun know y...today feel so happy, coz i pass all the subjects in the end. i no need take sup paper dy, haha. plus 3 months holiday..God really treat me so Good. now feel like no burden. wan eat then eat. wan to sleep then jes go to sleep, wan to play then go to play. wow, this life actually no much. if for the working person. but i still wan to give thank to God let me pass all the subject, even the super hard one, i also pass it..i very happy coz i never did the paper wit so confidence. this time,i answer the paper wit my confidence. actually i know my result dy,but still stay at here wait. but today my last result also released dy. i very happy see all pass it. everythime my cgpa always slight down,i think this time can slight up liao gua.haha. thing over here, tat mean i wan back to hometown dy. today already phone to my mum and told her dy. wow, long time really no meet my "si gui" friends at hometown, dun know they fat liao or slim liao. everytime i back to hometown wit rushing. rush back then rush back to kl again. i think this time i can stay longer a bit la, haha. think wanna take my guitar back coz my hoetown friend called me teach him but really no hand to take my guitar liao..haha.next time ba,this time teach u basic first. wow, rethink back, 3 week i focus on my exam,in the end i get the result. really feel is very good. i also wanna thank to my group mates accompany me study and always yum cha. haha...i also celebrate the moon cake festival when we study. suddenly very miss them, but they back to hometown jor. anyway, when i coming back will find u all yam cha liao la..haha. and also thank my lecturer, teach me so patiencely. thank u..i very happy..haha

日子开始的无聊~~

考完了试，大家开开心心的回家见家人，可是我呢? 没有他们那么的幸福。还是在这里留了一段时间。 其实这次的三个月给我是对的还是错的?一直以来，我都为自己的学业忙碌。 没有一次可以在家逗留很久。 可是现在突然要我听下来，说真的还有点不习惯。其实还蛮想读书的，至少可以看见自己的朋友们。 日子一天一天的过去。 现在在这里的人越来越少了。 其实就好像失去了"笑声"。 气氛也没了。 其实还蛮高兴在这里可以认识的朋友。 虽然不多，可是一两个已经满足了。 好啦，不写啦，希望今天的成绩可以出来了!!我真的不想在这样的等下去。。。

誤會~~

誤會這個東西很麻煩, 也將讓大家的感情變淡. 当误会加深后,就会乱去想..有时候误会也可以视为默误...还有时候,自己被人误会了,都不知道. 谁能去解决这样的问题? 既是解释,又怕他们不高兴, 不解释,他们就认为你一直对他们有偏见. 有时真的好矛盾. 我只是一个人. 一个很普通的人. 可是我就是一个在人家的眼中被误会的一样用具. 其实也不是第一次了啦,这种已经是很习惯了. 有时到的觉得朋友到底是什么? 友谊万岁? 讲义气? 互相帮助?还是朋友拿来出卖? 我真的很矛盾. 这些都很难去说.有时一一眼见面都会很讨厌对方. 有时朋友就没联络,感情也会这样的变淡. 如果真的想回去,有时真的一个好朋友都没有. 当朋友误会你时候,就说你对他不坦白. 当坦白说出来其实是这样,有怕她会生气. 是不是很好笑? 我真的不会怎样去安慰人. 我只想身边能够快快乐乐的. 我就是什么都不会,只会躲在这里写一些无聊BLOG的人. 我地切要想过,朋友参太多就会有跟多的纠纷.无论如何,一开始我就是错的. 有时候,我被搞到很难去面对大家. 我真的很辛苦,家里的负担那么大了,我还要面对其他的问题. 既然答应了爸爸我会扛起他所有的责任.我就要做到. 责任感很重要.可是有时候责任真的会让你感到有压力. 朋友们, 应豪其实就是一个和你们一样的普通人,只是大家的情况不同. 我要对一个死去的人说信用! 如果平时我真的让你们误会些什么,只希望你们不会真的去把我想到那么的坏. 有时我真不知道我的行为让你们误会什么,可是还要说声对不起. VERY SORRY ABOUT THIS. 我真的不晓得, 如果你不说,我也不知道. 别怪我不会开完笑什么,我说话就是很认真,严肃. 这也给大家一个尊敬. 如果我真在这里说错什么,要多多的包含. 也不要去责怪自己多管闲事什么的, 应豪从来没有责怪大家. 我只要说清楚我要的是关怀.信任. 不开心,当睡醒后,什么都忘记了. 我不会把它收在心里,因为这样会很辛苦的. 我希望在这里能得到大家的认同. 大家都不晓得以后会发生什么东东. 能珍惜现在的时光,是一种过程在存档进去你的脑里. 将来,以后,这些都会成为大家的回忆..

战争完毕~~

三个礼拜的战争终于都挂上了句号，大家都精疲力尽，带着不同的心情回家。个有个的计划。所以大家一考完，就回家去了!! 这次的考试非常的满意，成绩出完了。只是昨天考的还没有出而已。在这里，虽然人少了些，可是，在中秋节的气氛还有，昨晚还看到一些年轻人一起提灯笼呢。。可是老天不作美，既然下雨。 把地上所有的蜡烛都熄灭了。 虽然考完，可是我还有会留在这里，别人可是有亲人在家里等待他们。可是我呢? 我的生活在那里都是一样的。 回家不回家，对我来说，只是换一个环境而已!日子还是一样。 妈妈没空，在家我也是不知道做些什么好。一个人在家的感觉真好。 没有了考试，我的生活也开始改变了。昨晚和我的朋友去吃火锅。也算和他们庆祝了一个难忘的中秋节。好啦，考完就好。一切平安!

Moon Cake Festival

today is moon cake festival, also is my last paper for today. very exiting and also worry. exiting coz i wanna finish my exam already, worry is my last subjec super hard. moon cake festival seem here no ppl, only tat study ppl stay at here only,all already went back to hometown. haha,i think today after i exam and back to home and wanna shout "i finish lor", but house pplalready gone. this morning jes celebrated moon cake festival with my group mates. although simple however meaningful. seem i wanna passing a alone moon cake festival tonite. anyway, after i finish my exam jes say. now still havent finish yet. after exam,i really lost direction. dun know wat i can do in 3 months,anyway back to hometown first and see. ya,happy moon cake festival for all!

最后的一科，很难读，很难过。。

终于，这是我的一百个日记，非常的快，平时一直写，一直的写。 可是我不曾看回我所写的东西。 人始终还是要往前看。不能只是停留在一个回忆当中。可是我本身又很想找一天看回我所写的东西。。。终于我都打开最后一科的NOTES。。最后一科还要考法律。。我还蛮大压力的。当我翻开NOTES时。 我的确很乱。 因为太多了! 真的有一点当心我会FAIL最后的一科。我真的好累，可是又能怎样? 终于成绩也出了。 可是还没出完。等等吧。 看来大家都回家了吧? 我还是要留在这里过一个孤单的生活。 3个月的假期要开始了! 非常期待， 可是又觉得很浪费时间。 真的很想在这个三个月内做我想做的东西。其实，每一次，我都会用日记来表达我自己的心情。快乐，悲伤。。如果没有甜酸苦辣。做人还有什么意义。啊，明天礼拜天，该是我第一天在教会SERVE 吧。 可是大家都回家了，应该很少人。现在我好大压力压!最后的一科好难。。。我没有把握。

不开心

今天的心情，的确不开心。 很累不想写。。。。。。。。。。。

累~

已经是最后第二科了，感觉上越来越累~~~什么时候我才可以完成我这两科? 下个礼拜~~?我就是最后一个庆祝的人~~可是那时候，只有我一个人在庆祝而已吧~~朋友们都上云顶去了!!他们的计划都安排到好好!!只是在等候时间的到来。我就没有什么伟大的计划要实行啦。。。只想考完试就拿一天来睡觉。。是不是很简单呢? 最近真的好好累，如果能把时间停下来然后拿来睡觉的话有多好。。希望这样的生活可以快快的过去。。别再来了。。

作战时期

在作战的时期，兵士们最想有一个很好的觉睡，可是在他们的心中，偏偏就有一个恐惧，他们怕敌方的军士会暗算他们。 所以，每个军士都会时时刻刻都提起警惕! 考试也是这样，考试期中，真的没有一个好睡的时间，担心这个，担心那个。大家都希望这个战争会很快的结束。 可以会家看看自己的亲人。 最近的我地切没有什么睡觉。没一次都是在自己的书台上睡觉。没有一个很好的姿势。 没有办法，谁叫我非常注重这次的考试。 我不能在让自己的成绩在跌了!!是时候我要把它拉上来。 学生，就是考好成绩!! 我不想以后成为我的遗憾。 看看日历，我真的好久好久没回家了! 虽然现在在不同的地方，可是心早已经在想念我的亲人。 要中秋节了，可是看来还是自己一个人庆祝把!!很想玩灯笼也，玩蜡烛。 如果在这里提灯笼，会不会被人笑呀?也大就也怀念童年的生活，怪不得老人家在年老是都会作出很幼稚的行为。可是在他们看来，他们真的真的非常怀念这种感觉。。。钱可以赚回来，可是时光，回忆。。有钱都得不到。。。。

我失眠了。。。

怎么啦? 为什么到现在还不能睡? 不是说好要12点睡觉，然后五点半起来再都过的吗??可是我在床上翻来翻去，不能入睡。。。看来我一就是现在睡，不然就不要睡了!!五点半怎样都要读书!!那是我最后的冲刺!不管了!!又上帝安排吧!!

Battle !

the time still wanna coming, no body can run out this circle. yeah...take ur sword and ur shield, wear up ur amor and prepare for fight! we no jes fight for our self, we also fight for Glory. long time we prepared our self, now is the time we stand up and fight! no matter how strong of enemy, no matter how strong of the defender. we only can fight! this is our way. as a warrior, we must be brave we cannot worry, we cannot nervous, we cannot be weaker. fight jes only one way we go! no give up in our mind. the real meaning for "strong" no mean one person! tat is whole the team! team work will be more stronger than one who very strong! Fight! no chance! fight! to stop the war ! fight! for the last winner!!!

tuesday morning

3:14am now, but i havent sleep, feeling sleepy actually maybe after this blog i will go to sleep lo. i like to write blog at this time. very quite no body will kacau...latelly all busy for exam. all not stay in house. jes few of us stay here and study. wanna go to my friend house study,sometime feel very lazy. so jes study my self lor..haiz plus MTI coming, i think next week will be less people in the house. i cannot do anything during MTI, coz of the exam. i kena say tata to MTI. after this MTI, all will back to hometown jor. for me? haha, got house like no house, wanna back dun wan back also nevermind one. actually also no idea. if i really go back,then will be hard to come back to kl again liao lor. 3 months, actually very fast one la.12 weeks only ma. still dun know after exam jes think. still got 2 days wanna strat my exam lo. very sad is my exam need 3 weeks. but after this 3 months break, aiya apa pun ambil balik liao la. wish my lecturer really got job for me tat time. hrm....also many ppl birthday in september, but coz of exam. we jes simple celebrate it. haiz,turn to exam. gambate all la. my coughing still havent be good. when this time my cough will getting serious. well, jes fine...kl nite very nice...hometown really cannot see it. dun know y, heart feel a lot of burdens. sometime, really feel tired, wanna rest. people always say: good rest is for future long journey...Be a man, really not so easy! He must take all the burdens and responsibility. whatever how big the burden. He also need to sustain for it. not jes talk,but need to action. maybe u will say me "da nan ren" , but for me, responsibility very important to me. this what my father teached me. well, now i jes 22, still have long journey need to walk. watever how my life will become worst or what, i still wanna walk thru and breakthrough all this. coz i'm MAN. from here also wish my roommate happy birthday!! althogh ppl less a bit, but we still appreciate our brothers relationship! hard we will know each other from different hometown. Thank God for creation this beautiful relation. we really really appreciate it!

sweet memory

today,i jes get my primary school and secondary school website. finally, my school get their own website. rethink. i long time dint back to my primary school and secondary school already. i saw the pictures of my school from the website. let me remember back a lot of sweet memory at there. especially my friends and my teachers. for my teacher,some already passed aways and some already pencen. now,the school already change the new teacher to teach. i saw my juniors. they still a kid. jes like me tat time. friends always forever that time. coz we no need worry anything and thinking simple. every day we play. my school is a old school,it was built b4 the 2nd war. during the 2nd war. my school kena close it and after the 2nd war,then my school jes reopen back. so,my school actually got a long history. childhood very good. wan play then play,still remember that my primary school result very good. but until secondary school, became ghost liao..haha.like to play. tat time although sian.but friends always stick together. break time we stick together, after back we also stick together. but after f5,every person got their own way to go. me also. so,now wanna keep contact also hard.some already married to skudai.long distance. i really appreaciate that memory. coz tat time i really found my true friends. but now. anything wanna be independent. time jes passing like water.suddenly,i so miss my school. if really got a chance,i wan to back and take the pictures for my school. now my school already become more nicely than b4 already. but the building still there, what is changing is..the people there,and the teacher there. no one can be longer at there, one day we still need to step out this school and face a lot of problems for this social. i love u chio min. "mang guang cha dua chang"!! haha

still have 1 week to go...

ptime passing so slow, i jes realised tat i still got 1 week jes start my exam. ppl already started today. study week very boring,always stay at house. actuallly also no much to study,coz this time my time got over sufficient to me. so for today i jes used 1 hour only to finish my today revison. then the rest doing what?sleep lor...but latelly coughing still havent be fine. my stomach mucle started pain coz of the coughing. cough so much sure started pain liao la.also very suffer. talking like cannot talk.wat to do? pray for healing only lo. free de ma,buy medicine need money. actually no much like study week and after exam ,coz look like nothing to do,suddenly feel so so so free. staying here, also waste time. wan to back. bus ticket expensive ma.cannot always back wit siok siok. although staying here, good,but for me tat person no "poi" one sure die haha...

coughing look like serious ler..

e mharm harm...my coughing look like serious ler...no more healing..hohoho..but wat good my body still ok. no any problem.erm,study week looks like very boring! no much touch my book,but more touch my computer.hoho.wow,rethink back,i really long time no back to hometown liao. one person live alone really not so easy. but from now,wat all i really need depend my self to do. the time getting closer and clser, now all already enter to exam area dy. all jes at there gambate. think tis exam,i start late also finish late lor,all finish they exam,but ithink i still wan saty here to gambate it. coughing very suffer. soon soon get well plssss...

sicking

aiyo...y body feel no comfortable...too tired?? alredy feel my body getting wrong liao. i think better sleep now. jes ate 2 peendadol. hope tomolo nothing to me.............sleeppp

on fire!!

although now i study week,however,i looks like no mood to study. reason, dun know. i jes feel that i wan to worship God more than i study, even i read bible more than i read my book. izzit good or what? my heart only got of the heart of worship. another thing really no interest. but sometime still force my self to study, still like cin cai cin cai study. most of time will give to God to do the quiet time. this end of month, so many activities kena block coz of the final exam. like mti, my father stuff, friend wedding and etc. all the time crash wit my exam time. also feel so pai seh to my friend coz of exam i cannot join his wedding. haiz. mti also, this year already take the initiative to participate it. but in the end still crash wit my exam time. haiz..miss it, some time really dun care my exam and jes join it. but izzit mti every day got? if everyday then i really cannot make it lo. so sayang.very sayang. wow, after the exam.start my long holiday.long no long,short no short like that lo. after this holiday,i also getting more busy than now dy.final year project waiting me now. need to do some survey for it. jes pray for myself able get the job in kl la.this 3 years i come out to kl the purpose is i wan to be independent. and i dun wan always depend my family dy. jes hope i really can learn something while i stay in kl. suddenly get cough. my throat no much comfortable now. exam exam exam, jes hope i can rise my cgpa dy,dun wan drop dy. but now really no the mood for study. why? i also dun know. am i stress? look like no ler,i so enjoy like tat. good? no good? i have no idea. after the exam,i also wanna increase my guitar level dy. i wanna start to learn power tab for the guitar. start to play the effect for the guitar. wow. look like early now. exam season jes like tat, every person break and doing revision them self, hard to get reunion back for this time. actually, for me, not prefer exam time cancel the cg. more genting this this period, more of the God stregth we need. i jes wan this fire always burn it continuely and never stop it. support one another for this time. we also need Lord, guide us for this time. and never forget is learn His words.

Emerge 2007 Youth Conference

wow, jes back from subang. jes joined the city harvest church emerge 2007 youth conference. nice conference also. when we reached there, the hotel already overflows, we cannot get in, jes stayed at outside watched the lcd only. then jes visited the sharaton hotel also take took some pictures also. very lame, merdeka celebrated at there, still went there ate the icecream. so so lame. the hotel very nice and romantic, jes sit at there for relax. then finally we can get in to the hall. the hall still very crowded but we still able get the seats. everytime watch the video sermon for pastor kong, finally able saw him in live and also close with him jes a few cm. saw our church members also been there. then jes joined them went to supper. finally my 50th merdeka pass it like tat. thank holy ghost came upon me. thanks!

harmonica

wow, yeasterday i went to my lecturer house n took my harmonica give my lecturer fix it. i jes realised that my lecturer also a crazy harmonica collector. i saw many of his harmonica collection, i saw one US 2000 harmonica in his house.walao, when i take the harmonica,i also scare later spoil it. only a harmonica, also need around US2000. very geng. still got some from japan one. i really like it. very heavy ,really very heavy. n big. jes lerned from him how to clean the harmonica. really crazy. for me,made in china one also better liao lor..haha..

祝福她～～

最近是不是我眼花？還是近视？我看到自己以前的女朋友了，虽然我们分手已经半年多了，一直都没有联络对方，直到最近，我没有想到我会在这样的情况下看到她，she already been another ppl gf.虽然她没有发觉到我，当她看到我时，我赶快的跑掉，那时是我最后一次反过自己的脸然后向前走，没有在后去头看她。很快的，半年多了，虽然当时我们是在一个很不愉快的情况下分手。可是隔了那么久。大家都有大家的生活。虽然一个住楼上，一个住楼下。可是大家也没什么见面，或许当时她做这个决定是对的。因为我根本不会怎样的去关心她。 我把时间都花在学业，家庭方面,没有真的去关心过她。 我以为大家的感情一定会很稳，可是没有想到大家的感情原来就是那么的薄。 最近看到一个综艺节目，说道那个男女朋友已经分手了直到我知道他们为了什么而分手时，那时我真的觉得，那个男的很像我。因为玩电游，而忽略了我自己身边的人。我是不是很坏？我是不是一个不不负责人的人？以前曾经为了她和家人闹，是不是当爱情来的时候，连自己都不知道自己在做些什么？我是不是很傻？ 当大家的疑问越来越多时，我们很难可以在彼此的信任。知道最后大家都没有商量的地步。真的，只有默默的祝福，是我唯一我可以为她做的。虽然我不能完成我对她的承诺，可是我还是要感谢她给我一个美好的初恋。回忆，就是过去。 我们的感情就到此。我也不应该想太多了。辛苦她以前一直照顾我这头牛。。。

14 weeks going fast......

wow, 14 weeks going faster, every weeks must busy until the end. finally i finished it my last report yesterday. i now can rest few days and then next week start my final rivision. actually this sem no hard for me,but lecturer always trick us. so, ever thing must be careful when answer the question. this sem the study more focus on experience, if got work b4, sure can answer all, yesterday went to watched movie. it can say that i first time watch chinese movie in kl, i still remember that i watched initial D last time in penang, hoho. now everthing were settle,jes waiting final exam coming it. after that 3 months break.wow, long tme i dint have like this long holiday, perhaps my lecturer wanna hire me la,haha, coz he said he wanna hire a group ppl draw the building. need study back my autocad liao haha. if not, then jes temporary say good bye to kl and balik kampung incubate!! hoho

presentation

yesterday had a presentation, finally i got a friend kena shooted till kao kao by us. although looks no god like tat, friend ma,some also need give some face la,but wat we did were true. u now shoot by us better than next time shoot by client. when we go out and work, we must remember we cannot wasting our client "time" and "money" what u propose must sweet, but no a shit. so, learn from here, gambate!!

MTI

ahhh...exam time table came out dy, but the time is crash with the mti...i cannot join it this year? my exam from 13-25th, mti from 16-28th. after this year,i also dun know i still dun know wherether i have time to join next year or not. haiz,dun know y when wanna doing something sure the time not relevent for me. what i can do? unless miracle happen......y this sem the study week got 2 weeks one? normally 1 week only ma....

mid time

still got some time,so jes drop a blog here.. hoho,so, what i wan to say? hehe, actually nothing special jes nothing to do now so jes write something here. after next week, i think my course works all settle dy, then will start prepare my final exam. this sem going faster, look like jes get start but now already close to end of the sem. perhaps this sem i can pass smoothly, suppose this sem all the subjects no much hard. but lecturer looks hard. what he set the questions very very very tuff. simply say totaly out of the scope. look very tired latelly, i cannot stnd too long for only study. really need try to learn how to enjoy the uni life but no suffer in uni life...

life in KL

coming to here already 1 year more dy. my final year also coming soon. although anything got in Kl. but dun know y seem, i more like my hometown, izzit call homesick? 10years i havent go out to anywhere, every time i jes stay i nmy hometown, i jes wish one day i really can travel to any places. i got a lot of thing havent see on this earth yet. last time still wish i can work in kl..hehe but stay in here a moment, i think kl no much suitable for me. from here i learned how to protect our self, as a student, a lot of things will happen, if we no really learn it, in the end, we will lost everything. this week will be tired week! 2 tests 1 presentation. jes surrender this week to my God. lead me and guide me. what importance still is, get safe every day,every time. 22years dy. not 2years or 12 years old. thinking must be more mature and eye look far a bit. am i tired? whatever how, i will sustaining my self. be more strong. ever got a person told me b4, if u never shake this earth, i not count very success!! everybody must shake this earth. to shake this earth, we need many energy,manpower,sometime might sacrified something. but after u shaked it. the victories always belong us....

Refresh my Body~~Lord

few day no sleep for looking the fyp title. finally yesterday i met a supervisor he accept my idea,but he want me to prepare a proposal to him. latelly, i really tired, i think not mine only, all the utar students also tired. how i tired, i also remember tat how the Christ tired tired than me,jes only little tired. so what? last few day i met a friend, talk talk talk, after this he very interesting for the christian, he asked me many questions. i know him from buddish background. but since he so interesting, i jes share wat i know about the Christ to him. and call him come to church, coz this week got a pastor from new zeland come to malaysia for deliverence. i think is good, sometime we not realise that we rasuk or not, last time i saw one person, actually u also dun know he kena rasuk, he always smile wit u, look his life no pro, but tat day when pastor push his head. tat time u can see him different wit usual already. always belive God power can overcome everything,even us also got this authority to make it. our prayer can prevail all the things. although satan like to temp us. as a Christian Son of God, u had this authority to bind them. i suppose accompany my friend go for see, coz he seem very interesting for all this, but finally he still said he got other matter to do, cannot go, last time if for me, i will call him go, but rite now, i realise that, we share gospel not using our mouth to share, but is using our attitude to share. wanna ppl to belive in u and trust u, our life must be change. if our life very down and share gospel to ppl, this will come nothing for them. our heart importance. i no force him. i know i still got time to share with him. trust in God. although i tired, however...loving God cannot be deduct. attitide our self very important, even me also see that my bro and sis attitude and change my thinking for accept Christ. many testi they shared wit me. even pastor he also shared with me y he accept Christ b4 he havent be pastor yet. Our God really come as savior, he save a lot of his children. for those still forsaking Him, dun let it continue. joy and peach always come to u when u belive. miracle also...

To God

To my Father in heaven, u so almighty, u so awesome. wat u sacrified to us,but we always forsake u. every time ppl no belive in u, no trust in u, even hang with the christian name, they also blame u. but u still love them. ur blood no jes for 1 person only or 2 person, but is to all. for those belive in u as ur saviour. they get save. but, they always question a lot, they think u r the low class human. they said u only a human, but we know tat u r 100%man and u also 100%God. ur mercy touch my life. world getting lack of the love. human start to midunderstanding what is love? and also wrong using. u love is true... although we cannot see u, however we always feel ur presence here. other ppl will say us crazy this world where got God one, this words always prone into my heart, coz b4 tat, i also is one of them to say,this world where got such funny thing. but, when i get know u, u started u work in my life. makes our life become more wonderful. let us renew out life, u come for salvation. u come for healing, u power greater than others. my universal God, all the things created by u, even us u created. u give the abondance life for us. u give us all the best thing, u give us the canaan land. u give adam all the things. how u so love us, but every time we hurt u. we betray u, we blame u, we dun recognise u. but u also no blame us. all the suffer u cover all. but what we sacrified to u? what we do for u? my Lord Jesus, take the heaven cross, the cross jes like our sin, every person sin, only him take all. how he beated by roman soldiers, he also no blame anyone, until the end of u wanna die, he also told the father to forgave us. ur love nothing to compare. u mercy nothing to compare, if i can learn from u 30%, i think i really get happy. our father is good, he always good every day,every time , every second. everytime we need to give thanks, thank for ur food blessing,thank for u always protect us. thank for everthing. although this world i have no any friends, i jes got only one friends already enuff ,there is my Lord. u so holy, u so marvellous. i ever forsake u,but u still pull me up. halleluyah,when we shout to praise God. ppl think tat money is important, but we think tat u r the most importance. ur love unchanging. always get high. make it meaningful,,thak u lord. thanks thanks... my life is urs, when one day, my life really can use for u, iwll take for it. thanks u! my Lord

final year project title~~ =.="

already 2 days i looking what title suppose to do for my final year project. i watched a lot of youtube. a lot of the things. assignments all need to pass this week. i jes no time to look so much. after this week, assignment season pass, then test and presentation coming. after this ,i think tat i should sit for final exam already. time pass very fast. very fast...perhaps i too worry everthing. latelly my quite time getting less. wish i can set free soon........

secret place

actually tonite cg i got something to share to all the bro and sis in the close prayer, but got a called from home so no share it out. doesn"t matter, if next time i stilll got this calling, i will share it out. today, i happy coz i found back my song dy... jes share some, b4 i accept christ, really got some song touch my life, one of the song is secret place, i still remember that last time i sang this song in chinese version. i still remember that secret place, the chinese called " yin mi chu" last time i really let some song touch my heart deeply, very sad is i did not know the song name and that time i no got any instrument to play the song, i also stop very long din touch the guitar. so even i listen the song,but i cannot play it. so,after i get my guitar, i try my best to find back my memory about the song when touched me b4 i accept christ. i got the song book, got a lot of music inside, but i dont know which one is my song. so what is good, i started find back a lot of the music dy,but i still got some havent find back, mayb this song already old song, but this all the song really touch my life when i accept it, for me really very meaning full . very glad let me find back a song tonite" secret place" . i know that all of us very busy in this month, we might perplex by many assignments and tests, but, dont coz u fail in test or anything pull u down then u started blame God in your heart. we must always remember that, we can do all things with the God strength! what is all things?? that is everything!! no 50%, no 60% also no 80% but is 100% . although i very headche and find the supervisor every day, every time i go to the admin block and find supervisor, from 3th floor go to 4th floor, from 4th floor go to 5th floor, then from 5th go back 3th floor and find. but still no got it. the reception there i think they already wanna list me to the black list dy, always kacau them, ask the lecturer in or not. today maybe i cannot find it,but maybe tomolo i can find it, i believe i can find it in one day, never give up and go on. actually i many friends around me very desperate. always in school, something small matter also can become very complicated. so i really need very high strenght to overcome it, i getting effect very easily if i no the strength around me. b4 wat i use is talk to ppl how good is christ, but now i wanna use my attitude to be a sample to let him to see me. jes tell my sister and brothers, even u got everthing or loss everything in ur life, all this things jes like a smoke, will fly away. in the end u realise tat actually God never leaving u... the grace from God. dont too think unreasonable things to blame ur God or take something to compare it. doesn't mean how much u sacrified u will get back at all. this all need to consider in many way, God love the person although face many pro,however still follow God, but not when face the problem then blame the God. if u wanna see a miracle from ur life, not we say then got, if ur life look like no form, ur spritual life very low. how u can see ur miracle? when u blame ur God pls think back izzit ur life got follow him or not? doesnt mean u every sunday go to church then read the bible then u very love Him. what importance u got receive his words from church or in the bible? the verses got prone into ur heart? haha,jes say a part only can say so much,maybe tonite God wan me talk out in cg. busy for ur assignment? or busy for ur test? final exam coming soon? feeling very stress? y dont put away all these things and chit chat with ur God? miracle will happen when u belive Christ. the world getting end soon, if christians still like tat, how we can let this gospel share out again? if U wanna God use U..then u really need put a lot of effort in it. mayb u dun know what is God strength, but i tell u, when u really see the God strenght, u really will cry out....the amazing power form the God, u cannot control ur emotion,ur heart jes always think the power so touching!! no jes the ppl who touch by the power, the surrounding ppl also get touching from this power. share until here first la, haha
17/8 coming soon, actually wanna balik kampung but after this jes know that actually is llook the chinese calender, if follow the standard calender suppose my father pass aways already 1 year, i should back, but now see the chinese calender so is september first of the week, i think i cannot balik already coz exam that time. join the mti program and find the part time in here..really no much time balik. but doesn;t matter i remember that when tat time i accepted Christ as my saviour, i already surrender my all life into his mighty hand, my destiny will control by him. no matter what he wan me to do, remember dont ask so many y, jes do it...never regret...

if 24hours can extent

a lot ppl always say, wa 24hours no enuff for us to spend..izzit 24hours no enuff to ppl? this month all the busy thing comes instantly...plus finding supervisor for the final year project..my head getting bigger. august really full of busy. according to the analysis, malaysia got about 78% is the working time, but for the oversea countries, just only 36% like tat only, can see tat, our country getting higher, ppl jes working every day. stress also higher..this world getting end very soon, sometime i very miss the previous moment..although tat time we no have any computer, although our country still no so moden. but we see that the ppl relationship getting closer,but now..although economic getting improve ..the relationship of ppl getting far..even 2 person cannot talk face to face. need to use the sms to talk..very tire latelly..but after this month i free already gua...rite now, find the supervisor most important to me....

Busy August, last month, last battle..

august dy, seem very fast huh, this month a lot of things happen. such as my father passed away a year already, my licence need to renew la,3assignments, 4 tests, 2 presentations. this all never mind, what i headches rite now is i need choose my final year project supervisor. supervisor need us go back think the title to him already then jes depend he wan be ur supervisor or not. this make me head become big, coz no idea for the final year project title. a lot supervisor full dy, so i jes hope i dun wan get the lecturer i dun wan. may God bless me for selecting the final year project title and get the supervisor what i wan. thank God..last month for us to battle, Go ahead!

Give Thanks

today is a great day!! i get financial blessing from my relative. it was great..also wanna give thanks to God. today go to my session members convo. wow, seem join many convo, like havent till me. now need to refresh my body, get tired ... noting to say now, tomolo will be great day also!!

desire

every person got their desire? difference kind of ppl got difference type of desire, some still got a lot of desire... when we childhood, we got a lot of desire...teacher always asked how ur desire for ur future, we always gave a lot tat time, but when we growing up, we feel that sometime, our desire hard to be reality. some will say tat, depend my qualification, my level? they never think tat, now, they have no desire, but desire has them...they start to rope by the desire. tonite cell group share jes now very good for me..also let me rethink back about my desire...u know, i get my desire after i form six, also when i know the Christ Jesus. sometime i think, if tat time I dun know Jesus, how my life will be?? desireless? haha.i heard many of my friends getting marry soon, great news. so, they need to plan now and get ready from now... for me? haha,still never think this stuff yet, broke wit my gf, wat i now jes hope i can finish my degree now, a lot ppl put hope unto me.. included my father..but he cannot see me graduate, but nevermind, he will know it and proud it coz he got a son like me,haha. i cannot get marry rite now coz i know tat, i still got a lot of liability at outside. although my relative will support me,however i still think tat, no good i use their money. wat i think now actually very simple,finish my degree first, and then get a work and let my mum get rest liao. she also no young liao, is the time i take care my mum dy... and also settle all my debt out side, money important to me, parent more important than money, then my life partner ler,jes surrender to my God la, i trust him will choose one to me...hoho..jes belive that, i can do anything with the God strength. jes pray it like wat the cell group share jes now... as we pray, we shall receive..pray effetively..nothing impossible. what the pastor said very nice, he said that, we must be a prayer warrior but no a prayer worrier. the fire of prayer can burn it..devils also need to run away..so.. i think i got the desire now. jes keeping it dun give up easily....

long holiday~~

two days dint go to class already, my head still very pain~~ and friday saturday and sunday were my usual holiday,plus monday no class..wow, i take almost 1 week for my holiday. long day...haha..emerge 2007 coming soon, hope can go, but think cant. aiks..~~i no energy to write so much~~ weak..........

Miracle

http://www.praizetube.com/viewvideo/30/Blind_Woman_Healed/
after watched this tube, i also saw that God did a miracle upon the blind man, i could't forget it when i see it with my eye. the first church i joined, make a miracle and make me cannot belive it, but it was true. no cheat, no lie...i still remember that, that day was sunday service, then got a blind woman came to the church and join the service. so, the pastor and all the brothers sisters pray for this blind woman. keep to pray. this blind woman also by faith and pray also. she eye suddenly getting open dy, but still no so clearly, got the glare enter to her eye. so, all the brothers and sisters also the pastor never give up and continue to pray for her. finally, she can see dy, she really can see. b4 she came she need ppl help her to church,but after this she said she can do it her self. miracle, awesome God. i never saw this,but after this, i belive tat, the power of God sometime, we using the sciencetific way to think it, but in the end still cannot get the answer! jes God know it, i remember a sentence while i read the daily bread, the book said tat, what we see jes a part, but God see ALL... it is true.. Coz u belive, u get heal. Jesus already did the 99.99% for us dy, we jes need 0.01% to accept him, why so hard? we belive Our God,coz He was the truely God.all these things were created by Him included us. no matter how, we still is his son. some ppl came to this world without any purpose. some ppl even christians they choose to forsake God. do u all got think tat, b4 u wanna die, the last breath, what u mind will think? peach or fear? life with joyful everyday, no matter how, our saviour jes only one, tat is Jesus Christ.. our trinity God..

Thank you my sister...

yeah, my sister went to muar jes bought some biscuit to me, thanks so much. i long time no go to muar dy, and also long time no eat food there, i also miss the biscuit. today she bring to me that shop i always go b4. b4 i always go tat shop buy a lot od biscuit. but no already no chance eat liao. thanks God, today let me can eat again. jes back back from school, my head suddenly so heavy. i think really get sick, then go to sleep a while, now better dy. also wanna wish my lecturer be safe along his journey to kampucia. wanna call him buy some presant to me la,wakaka. today i saw a couple in utar. the boy fetch the girl by the bikecycle the girl sit behinf the boy. so ramantic, seldom see kl got like this, all jes know using car only. when i saw this couple my heart also get sweet.haha. latelly damn tired ler, physical my friends also said me getting less to joke dy. i also dun know y, jes busy my assignment, then presentation coming soon. but after this sem...haha, also receive my friend "red bom" already... after sem break wanna balik kampung for my friend wedding. yo, one more wedding liao..we this getting be "old yellow fellow" haha. 2am now, also wanna sleep dy,tomolo still got class need to attand. good sleep for tonite, and be better tomolo..giving thanks to God, for today blessing...thank you.

Boring saturday nite~~

yoyoyo, damn boring wer...tonite, my housemates got 3 person balik kampung, the rest one dun know going where dating liao, the house jes leave 4 person include me. one already sleep liao. jes got 3 person now...hai~~ latelly all my friends balik kampung, dun know wat big festival also~~ now wanna find a friend go to yam cha also hard.. today went to join my coursemates convo, unfortunally, raining ler.. but still got stop la, finally... join liao so many convo in ktar but i havent get convo... heart so suan suan...jes wanna take a pieace of paper, every time study,assignment, and test exam.... dun know when i convo is how one? haha, i now realise tat, all friends going back...really feel lonely here... really miss we all gather together, but how long we can sustain this relationship till forever? sometime i think tat i wanna convo liao. and i also wanna leave my friends here dy...i really appreciate this moment now, jes snap a lot of pictures and next time when we leave...i can get some pictures for memory. memory tat i got many friends in kl....

finally can write Blog

lol, dun know ape hal, cannot write blog in last few days. i tot my pc cacat dy, but today everything dy be alrite. well, what i wan to say? jes my life lol, if nothing wanna to say dy. is ok latelly, finish my test temporary, now is starting my assignment lol. haha. facing study, i getting no mood, coz i got a lecturer, very very have his own strict princip. wat he wan us to do, then we really must follow. if not, we will die fast. last time did his test,then dy gave back us few day ago. i saw my marks got some dissapointed. finally i knew tat, all the question actually the answer i gave is rite, but y he gave me no marks. i see, he said tat wat language i use is no true. but my answer is true one, coz i like use my own language to write. so, he no gave me anymarks, i argue wit him. also useless. haiz~~ answer is true one ler. he make me dun know how to continue it his lesson. i put away his thing when he gave the corect answer. i no mood wanna to hear what he say. coz he make me no so admire him. but rethink back. if i give up now, jes tell him i confess i wrong, jes take out all my notes, and continue my study. finally i open another new line lol, reason is my old line really got some problem. jes open 2nd line lol. no so rich la, take 2 hp. after this my old phone will leave in house no take out liao, anthing wanna call me jes call my new line ya. august coming soon, my friend invited me go to join the immerse conference in subang. but 3 days located on 29,30,31 august. many ppl from difference countries will come, actually i really hope can go to see. haiz,if go alone then better dun go liao la. MTI coming soon, i hope this time i really can join it. no any time interruption. maybe MTI is my last activity in this year, after this i might back to home 3 months. this year christmas day, i might be alone gua..haha..

harry porter damn GOOD!!

wanna sleep dy, feeling cool now, jes now did a crazy thing, raining day went to swim. now body feeling cool. body shaking. so nice....this weekend passed dy, tomolo start the week, start my class also.
today watched harry porter dy, this movie damn good until dun know how to say, the fellow beside me one watched till fall in sleep, for me ler, sleep till dun know wat time,always jes watched the watch. totally dun know tat wat the story talking about. my lovely sister and brother, buy dvd watch enough liao la. today lepak whole day, also feel tired tired abit. test coming again. haiz...dun care, sleep first. tomolo will is a good day and new begining for me. yoyoyo!!~~

half of the sem

soon, half of this sem already gone, every week test test test, also assignment assignment assignment. really no test no life. today saturday. quite good i stay in house can can wash my 2 weeks cloths do the duty. some time really lazy watch the cloths, but still need la, if no, no cloth liao lor. dun know when, i still can release from the test and assignment? as soon as possibe la... latelly, aiks, should say now a days wethers so bad. dun know y, getting hot day, the durian and pisang goreng so good sale. next time human house need to keep ice in the house, if not will melt under the sun. next month is my father leave me 1 year, actually i should back, but i scare tat time i so busy. depend ba...coz tat time, my final exam also getting close...so see first ba...

test ler... non stop one....!@#$%

tomolo? haha, test again, tomolo and thusday also got. but tomolo one i more worry lala, always like tat, do u see my head getting bigger like doreamon?? memorise so many many, thousands of words. the next die hard 5.0, will be alex act. remember come and watch when it release.... test jer, know then do, dun know jes let it, y study like wan die cannot die, wan life cannot life..? really damn. now doing wat?? actually dun wan write blog liao, suddenly come here then sun bian drop some some here la. jes no no current.. important moment dare dare no current, went to tbr lepak lepak a while... then jes come back, finally current get back, me also come back, every settle, sit in front the pc. then open my charm book.... started read some verses to kill demons... hey demons, nice or not?? dare dare come kacau me....now tutorial time..read first, then tomolo will say sayonara to my lecturer, coz i will let the paper clean clean no write anythng...wakakaka...

acrhi fair 2007

yesterday i went to archi fair at convention centre. around 5pm we reached there and saw many ppl there. this fair let me say about our construction really wide in future. all the exhibition very nice. the time pass very fast, we cannot see all the exhibition, jes hurry hurry get the brochures then back liao. this time let me get a lot of things and i will come again next time. this week lots bz. all the materials i jes started a bit. yesterday, when started study i already cannot tahan dy. take a nap on table, when i stand up wan to walk to my bed, i fell down. all my body no energy. mind so blur. sit on the floor a while, then after tat jes slow slow walk to my bed. today wake up early. getting better. started my battle this week. May God bless me. halleluyah

My 3:00am blog

now already 3am, all the housemates besides me and vick havent sleep. reason is afternoon i got sleep, now can not close the eye n sleep. the 2nd reason is i got a lot of thing havent read yet. later got sunday praise and celebration n vision day. also, i wanna go to klcc join architect exhibition. whole day will gone, so what ever now i wan to study. if not, no time already. jes now talked wit chong en. from he, i knew tat, he think tat, english very big obstacle to him. i felt tat he very same as me b4. when i first time come here, english also very bad, first time attend the class, all talked english. i still cannot said a proper english, i can talk but only in heart, when i said out, the thing already different inside my heart. jes encourage he, learn from here weaknesess. told him the method to solve his problem. hope he can get well, dun let the study press him down n far from God. last time when i pressure, i will no went to church. bad habit. he really need ppl to encourage him. and build up his spirit. "YOU CAN DO EVERYTHINGS WITH GOD STRENGTH" this wat i can share wit him. dun always think tat u cannot study. we r unperfect, even me also cannot study. dun let study to press u down and far away ur brothers and sisters. hope he can get well also. year 1, i also like tat, everything i very hate my brothers sisters and church. i blame God never help me when i down. rethink back, izzit i got build a closer relation with my God?? last time i only know how to get the demands from God, but i never give thanks. i jes assume God is the atm mechine, when i need i jes go to press, when i no need it, then jes let it. every time i pray i jes said out what i want, this i want, tat i want.. but i never give thanks.
recently around my friends got thier own plan. some very busy, some couple wanna dating, some clubing, some going church. hard to find them. jes hope they nothng happen la. i also wanna wish my hometown friends especially one of my friends she got problem with her bf. everytime i talked to her ,she seem no happy. sad coz i cann go back hometown yet. jes hope she really can relax and haddle all this things. maybe i cannot solve the problem, but i can be ur good audience. be cheer to face all this things. for me,latelly also like tat, every week test. this week i got a bit busy. what to do? by faith..i can do everything with God. look out from the window, all the house very quite. but izzit inside the house so quite? or the inside the house got many problems? nevermind, tomolo will be new life. be better than today. i think i better go to have a nap better a bit. but my test havent read..haiz.....how to do?? BY faith....

miss my hometown friends

long time no back to hometown,sometime think tat back to hometown nothing to do, hard to get contach my friends. every body got work,some more no around the hometown and going study. hard to gather together, jes only new year we can see each other. sometime very miss my primary and secondary school life, i got my friends and we play together and study together. but after f5, we all got difference way to go. some already immegren to usa. some already disapper ,dun know where they go, some still like tat, the face and face never change it. some from ugly change to pretty. some from short change to tall. always i look through my friendster. i saw they pic. and think back last time we play together but now we difference place to got different vision. getting big, getting wanna rethink last time. especially my friends. maybe one day b4 i die i will think back all this, jes like a empty dvd now recording, until me game over,this recoding will stop it.........

my mie mie sick again...>.<

haiz, today my motor pancit again, this time, i really take action to change it the rim.. many time the foreman called me change coz corrosion dy and will cause the tayar pancit. but i still dun wan change it. today when wan go to class, i saw my tayar dy lembik lembik, then i ride to petrol station , after still cannot. then i pull the motor to wangsa. the motor shop havent open yet. i jes put my motor there and come back first. haiz, latelly spend a lot. rental, water electric bill and etc....wat ever today, i must change the rim . if not, every time change, i sure pok kai....>.< haiz, no go class today. important lesson i miss it. jes hope i know for the test next week.

David love God so much

after this few day, my heart getting peach. i relised tat, sometime we share the gospel with other person, is u pull him up but no him pull u down. maybe the result come out will get dissapointed to us. but ask ur self, u already try ur best from here. God will know it. we come to share good news to all. from here, we also getting closer with our God. by faith, we can do anything. sometime i also will get shocked, my friend suddenly will ask me about christian. from here i relised tat, all ur action will get influence to other. jes follow him and dun ask, sometime will get a good result! my another christian friend asked me, if one day God wan u to marry a girl the girl never got communication or relation ship anymore. will u marry?? this question i also ask my self. izzit like tat got good future between me and the girl? never talk, and dun know anymore. i cannot answer her, but she no think so much jes give me a answer, she will follow God and listen to him marry tat girl/boy. pastor kong hee i know tat he was no "pak tou" process, he direct married his wife. when God wan him to build a new generation church in singapore, God also give him a view and wan him marry a girl they never know each other. pastor kong also follow wat the God said and ask the girl:"do u marry me" u know how the girl answer? first i think tat the girl get get shock. or i do, but no, the girl direct ask back him, When? follow ur God. u will get difference thing around u

Sorry, My Lord

Say the word & i will sing for You
over oceans deep i will follow
if each star was a song
and every breath of wind praise
it would still fail by far
to say all my heart contains
i simply live, i simply live for You
as the glory of Your presence
now fills this place
in the worship we will meet You face to face
thereis nothing in this world
to which You can be compared Glory to glory, praise upon praise
You bind the broken hearted
and save all my tears
by Your word you set the captives free
there is nothing in this world
that You cannot do
I simply live, i simply live for You.
sometimes, i feel tat i no really understand my GOD, how much i love Him? everytime i sing through the worship song, all the lyarics of the worship song such as, i wan to follow You, i wan listen Your word. no matter what i still wanna follow U, i live Coz of U and etc. all this always question in my heart. izzit i really listen his word every time? or jes simply said only, when get problems jes find him and blame him? izzit i got carry up the cross and walk with my Lord? or i jes like the Peter, always betray my Lord? sometime,i feel sorry to my Lord, every thing i did , i no think about him. jes only small matter then i give up and away Him. dun wan go to church. izzit i'm a good diciple and follow him? izzit God got blame me if i no go to church? NO, really no. jes me only blame him. My Lord carry the Cross and die on the cross, he beat by roman soldiers, then He got give up or not? No, he die also wanna save us. then how many ppl know he? for me, jes know how to blame. small matter look like end of the world. then i got stand on his side and think about my Lord? sometime i choose for away. izzit my problem big like Him? last nite i dream about jesus told me, "Alex, no matter u so tired, no matter u no mood, no matter u how much busy, u also cannot stop ur mission on this world. u good coz u know me early, but u know how many ppl still havent accept me? they rejected me. they live for they self. izzit u wanna give up also and same wit them? when u accept me, u already carry up my cross. although the cross very heavy, however we still need continue it. carry up ur sword and shield and fight for victory, no matter how much diffuculty in front, no care how many enemies in fornt of us. we still need to move on. u cannot stop there , we know victory always belong us, but we still need accomplish our mission, we came for this world no jes enjoy it, we need to save our brothers and our sister. be strong and fight for my name. no fear in ur heart, coz i always around u. Son of God never defeated. coz i trust u , and u trust me, our relationship jes can build up. i will coming back soon, be patience". i sorry to my Lord. He always around me and never forsake anybodies. i still dun know. the gift form God, is most beautiful and precious for us, tat is Jesus Christ. now i know it. sorry my Lord and also give Thank to my Lord for save us

Busy day

today is a good day, still got meaning in this day, no waste it. after finish the site visit, all of us went to 1U watched transfomer, movie no bad but when transform got a bit fast and hard to see it which one and which one. no much simply introduce the megatron, but all the movie still cool la, robot combine with car or plane. damn cool. after this went to kepong eat bah kuk teh... very sad i not a carnival so no eat the main food, finish all almost 11pm dy. back to home friend called me go to swim. then jes follow her go to swim, swim no much but talk so much,wakakak... long time dint chat wit my sister since she pak tou. around 2am,jes back to house. now still ok, jes finish my bath. waiting my hair dry. then jes drop down something in here. good day!! yo

get free from busy time

utar life always like tat, this period all started busy, busy what? assignment lor, small test lor, even mid term also coming soon. hard to get free on this time. but still can find some friends go to mamak yam cha relax relax. very soon, 3 months sem break coming. sometime felt tat very waste the time to wait the ktar student finish their LAN subject. but is ok, next time we can convo together. study construction very interesting, coz every time can run here run there. no need always sit in the class room and listen very very boring lesson. like this sem, need to go out to site and see. although study under the sun. i still very happy coz i can learn a lot more than the book. next week suppose got 3 tests, but wat very good new another 2 test postponed it. i can release some tension for next week. actually this few day my heart very usual, no up or down. i think very ok now. maybe next week wanna join my friends together go to watch transfomer. suddenly very miss home and my hometown friends. and wanna back to hometown the a break. but during this period i cant do it. every week need go to site. so, cannot go back. this sem need a lot of transport. coz we more stay outside than utar. so, we always need transport to travel to some place else. besides site, we still went to factories last week. get to know a lot of thing and the lecturer also treat us very good. hope this sem i can cooperate wit him happy la..

tomolo will be better than today...

finally, jes finished it my two lovely coursemates birthday. i also wish them happy birthday althougt it too early to celebrate , jes hope they can understand it we hard to gather together sometime. today is a good day. i should learn from lose. no body perfect. every body also need to learn, now my heart at least no so sesat than b4. joyce come from heart, but no come from face,no need to pretend it....tomolo is a good day, better than today.!

ptptn released

wa,finally ptptn came...now i can be "fong sam" a bit liao...but also need to save save use la....
today whole day in the room, look like prisoner. think a lot. jes feel tat very tire. i let devil defeat until gau gau...if wan to raise up. i think need more time to stand up. although i know tat victory always belong us... however, sometime devil still can pull down urs..i dun know y i always give ppl misunderstand me.. ex like tat, now friends also like tat... if i said wrong something,everybody blame me.. nevermind, next day i still pull down the problem and smile wit them. very fake, very fake...y i cannot do what i want? i wan cry then cry, i wan laugh then laugh...but y i need to pretend laugh actually cry....
my heart already cold.....
i dun know y i so useless, God still wanna choose me as His servent?
actually,answer i know it long long time..but my mind still appear this funny question.......

breakthrough~~fail.....

i am scare lose person, hokkien called " kia shu"...when i childhood, never got ppl will dare rejected me. jes got "yes". but when i come to kl. i meet a lot of people, got a lot of kind ppl. fierce, useless, good, bad,active. and etc...so,face to difference ppl, i must got difference character. infront the ppl, i cannot always "yes" maybe ppl will say no...or ur suggestion bar by someone else. i'am kia shu person. how i alive on this world neh? even i evangelise, what u said,no mean tat all must agree wit u. getting rejected a lot of times, my heart also pull down by them, very very down. coz no body will reject me b4. getting reject me..i also feel that i no energy to talk again. but what is good still got friends beside me to support me la. even sometime, i can lost my control when in my typing ask them come to church
i wanna scold ppl already, but after i typed it..i think it as a christian, if jes force them come, may be they will anti and said me y this person like this, luan luan ma ren deee...christian like tat dee meh. may be GOD always remind me and control my emotion, in the end i still delete it wat i write. and advise them again. but heart still got no siok a bit la. see the chord book got one song called "Purify My Heart" when i sing through, i cannot finish this song as well. y? coz my heart fight each other, pain, really pain. then the song i play out like difference, or i swang this song use all my power to release this song. cannot..cannot purify rite now.. i admire my housemate every time so happy. but me cannot. friends share they secret to me. i need to keep it. jes now i got a friend actually promise me wanna go church tomolo, but after this she change her mind. i chat wit her 2hours, but she still dun wan. tat time i still wanna start to scold her liao and force her. but if i keep on like tat, maybe friend also cannot be. jes let her free. i think what can i do for her, jes from i action la. what i do, will change a person opinion toward me. need sometime again. i wan to action to prove tat i really heart to heart,no lie to lie...jes this way. i wan her change her opinion. but i really need sister brother to support me. no need say until wanna give a hand or what,sometime one sentence come,i also appreciate it already. may God help me jes let me can change her la. sometime i saw the good pastor, y they got so many ppl in thier church, benny hinn, jes a normal ppl, but he can make a miricle all the nation follow him. izzit for us can do a good leader like him?how he can effect so many ppl to follow him. izzit when he get start also same wit us, share gospel one by one? but what is good is finally i get that y i get so down when i evangelise. b4 tat i jes know very down,but dun know y.. church friends or U friends, all also importance to me. i think need to learn how to express my self. really need more energy.....God, where r u?

monday test

received lecturer message suddenly, "pls inform all got a test on monday". wah. sir, r u serious ar?? i still think next week i can break and relax. but cannot. feel tat, no well now. dun know can study or not. haiz,what can i do, jes take out my book study as much as possible lo.

money, money, money

"alex, u cook mee again ar?? u always eat not sian meh". this sentence always come out when i cook the mee, my roomate will ask me even my friends sometime will advise me dun eat too much. in my heart, i sure know mee no good la,always eat will effect our healthy. but so what, this is a way to help me save more money. i'am spender b4. i can buy something no need to care the price. wanna buy,i sure wanna get it. but now. what i wan to buy i wanna consider around half year. my housemates will know, alex ar?? he dun go out dinner one la, always cook mee one. but how many ppl know i actually, i wanna save the money. sometime i also wish i can always join u all eat dinner. but i cannot always. what the way i can save is from eat. sometime i eat until sian, i still wanna eat. i wan to vomit. but still wanna eat. but now weak abit liao la,friends much a bit liao. sometime need to yamcha and celebrate birthday to them. spend a lot. for me, i really can save from my eat and give the best to my friends. appreciate them until one day, i the end...........

life~~

tomolo got test, besides study, what else i can do? i'm not a good memorise person. especially in my study. i dont like to memory it. but, what the fact is i need to do it. today damn tired, jes take a nap already half day gone. face to my notes. study hard will die hard? how i put effort to my study also the same. in contrast, my friend he lepak lepak also can get the good result than me. i realise tat, this world cannot jes only put effort then u will get it, sometime we need to smart to get something. if u no smart, u r the loser. i need learn from my friends also. smart for everything. then u jes can survive in this world..

test again

tomolo got test, besides study, what else i can do? i'm not a good memorise person. especially in my study. i dont like to memory it. but, what the fact is i need to do it. today damn tired, jes take a nap already half day gone. face to my notes. study hard will die hard? how i put effort to my study also the same. in contrast, my friend he lepak lepak also can get the good result than me. i realise tat, this world cannot jes only put effort then u will get it, sometime we need to smart to get something. if u no smart, u r the loser. i need learn from my friends also. smart for everything. then u jes can survive in this world..

father's day

11:59pm now, wow, still got 1min father's day pass it... although this year no father person passing the father's day, however still wanna wish my father happy father's day. also all the fathers. sometime, i felt tat, my father die coz of me. coz he worry about me. coz he so take care of me. so when he alive, i dint spoke too much wit him. also no much care him. but after he leave me. i felt tat how important him. my father n get the high education. but he still love this family. during my childhood, i very scared my father, when he beat me like very crazy one. so i very scared him, but after next day, he will bought something to give me. wat i wan he sure give. he getting old and older. and i also getting big and biger. wat my want, he started cannot give me, started cannot fulfill my desire. i started hate him. i wan buy hp , i wan buy laptop. i wan buy everything. he wount let me dissapointed one. i know him sure can give me. but how i know, i never stand by his side think about him. i never think about him work untill so tired. still wanna ot. but i never think about him. i jes think my self. what i wan. he pinjam ALONG, let me can go to Utar. in the end, he jes smile wit me, son no pro one. ur fees i will settle to u. u jes go on. i dint relised tat money came from where. i jes saw him every day work , always work. never stop it. how he work , i still no see he got money to me. where the money go? buy some useless things already? i blame him. i blame him coz he take the money also dun give me study. i cry it. but he still said dun worry. i will settle it. finally, i entered the utar. seldom stay in house already. jes few month met him. time very short. no met so much. he continue work. although he sick already, he still work. finally, he cannot support himself already. finally he get it a lot of sick in his body. we no money take him go to private hospital let him get the good service. jes let him get the service from government. i cannot stay in hometown so long coz i need to start my new sem. the last time i met him it wan in hospital. he asked me izzit enuuff money to spend? wanna me bank in to u? he already in hospital and cannot work already. he still asked me. after i back jes few month. i get it he came out hospital already,but still enter again. i worry about him. in the end, a call to me, "ur father no already" what?? where my father? last day i still talk telephone wit him. he still talk wit me. but today u tell me he gone already? after i back to hometown, i jes knew it. during this period he keep a lot secret and dun let me know. he called my mother tell me he ok. actually he sick already. he work hard coz he wanna pay back to ALONG. this time, i stand beside his coffin and see throught him inside the coffin. he thin already, he old already. he look make me shocked. he cannot wait until me graduate already. 5days i accompany beside his coffin. i told him, father dun rope ur self in his family already, now u should learn to fly. dun let this burden keep on to u. this burden should turn me to take it. thanks u father. coz u, jes got me. although this time we wanna got a gap. however, u still in my heart. i no a good student? i also no a good man. but what i will promise u i will life wit happy and continue my life. i wanna appreciate my life. and i will take all ur burden now. father u never change my heart. may be i cannot get a good result to u, but i will be a useful man in my life.....